on your own with no direction home like a complete unknown like a rolling stone
I'm starting to have my strange feeling again. I hate my strange feeling. I mean, my anxiety crap. Why? I used to be normal, I swear. I have been normal lately. For a long time now I've felt like myself. But now that we are standing on the edge of summer, I'm letting myself slip into worry. I shouldn't worry. I will be fine. I'm positive. But it's just what I do. I take a situation that is going to happen to me and I turn it to every angle and examine it. I've done that over and over again these last few days. I think I'm feeling particularly not well today. Nate moved out this morning. For the moment he lives in Athens and I live in Dacula still. I know in my head it's not that far and it won't be long at all before I see him again. But its that fact that he has stepped over the edge and I haven't. It just makes me feel... I don't know. I can't describe it.
Let's try to switch my mind to a happier mode shall we? I move in on sunday. I'll be living with three other girls. Their names are Megan, Cameron, and Jessica. They're all from around here too. We'll see how it goes. I'm really trying not to make any premature assumptions, you know? We've been emailing back and forth about who's bringing what and such. I've been trying to analyze there words and try to find out who they are. I've discovered that's not an easy thing to do with email. So, I'm just gonna go in there on sunday and do what I always do in situations that are new to me, sit back and watch. God knows I can't reveal how weird I am on the first day. They'll all be switching rooms, maybe even halls. hehe. No, I'm sure that won't happen. Although, if it did maybe I could keep the four bedroom apartment to myself. Hmmm... you can all hear my demented wheels turning can't you? Alright, enough. Later.
Let's try to switch my mind to a happier mode shall we? I move in on sunday. I'll be living with three other girls. Their names are Megan, Cameron, and Jessica. They're all from around here too. We'll see how it goes. I'm really trying not to make any premature assumptions, you know? We've been emailing back and forth about who's bringing what and such. I've been trying to analyze there words and try to find out who they are. I've discovered that's not an easy thing to do with email. So, I'm just gonna go in there on sunday and do what I always do in situations that are new to me, sit back and watch. God knows I can't reveal how weird I am on the first day. They'll all be switching rooms, maybe even halls. hehe. No, I'm sure that won't happen. Although, if it did maybe I could keep the four bedroom apartment to myself. Hmmm... you can all hear my demented wheels turning can't you? Alright, enough. Later.