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Being home for Christmas this year has just not felt the same. Being home has just not felt the same at all.... I don't really know why. I guess with me being in a different state than my family I have gotten used to not seeing them ever and so when I do see them it just doesn't feel right anymore. It's a really strange feeling, too. I don't feel at home here. I know I keep saying that, but it's true. I just feel like a guest in this house that I am forced to be at for the next three weeks. Bleh. And having to work a job I absolutely hate does not make matters any better. I just want things to feel somewhat normal here again... but they don't. It's weird. It's really, really weird. I don't know if I am going to be able to handle this much longer either... A week is about all I can handle and I am going to have to be here for three times as long... I just really need to suck it up. In just about two full weeks, Adam will be here and things will feel a bit closer to normal...
I cannot even begin to put in to words how much I miss him. I didn't think it would be this much already. We started talking on webcams today since he got one for Christmas, and Kaytie doesn't need hers anymore. It's nice because I love being able to see him, but it sucks because it reminds me completely of everything I miss about him, whereas over the phone, I can't see his smile or see his eyes that make me melt or just everything. I miss him so much it hurts, as pathetic as that sounds. He truly is amazing, and means so much to me. I don't know what I would do without him in my life right now. Everything is just so right. We work together so well, and complement each other almost perfectly. I didn't really think that was possible, to be honest, but I've found that it is. And it's amazing.
I cannot even begin to put in to words how much I miss him. I didn't think it would be this much already. We started talking on webcams today since he got one for Christmas, and Kaytie doesn't need hers anymore. It's nice because I love being able to see him, but it sucks because it reminds me completely of everything I miss about him, whereas over the phone, I can't see his smile or see his eyes that make me melt or just everything. I miss him so much it hurts, as pathetic as that sounds. He truly is amazing, and means so much to me. I don't know what I would do without him in my life right now. Everything is just so right. We work together so well, and complement each other almost perfectly. I didn't really think that was possible, to be honest, but I've found that it is. And it's amazing.