Driving to NC.... to see Robi
SO it has been quite sometime since I last updated my journal. I need to be more consistant in this thing, i have had so much going on over the last few months that they have all blended in together and all I have in my head a collage of my daughter's birthday, events, people, painting, cleaning, animal care, sleeplessness, depression, anxiety, drama, holidays, left over errands still yet to be accomplished and I could go on but I think I will stop for now. Even just getting this far I feel is an effort. So I am at work right now, yeah I get paid to goof, and I find that this is the time within a 24 hr period I am 'awake' and 'alert' within my head. This was I can collectivly collect my thoughts and transcribe them type. I am stressing about driving to NC. Robi is my Marine brother who is stationed right now at NewRiver Base in Jacksonville, NC. It will be about 8-9 hr drive and sinceI work nights, I was freaking about my work schedule on Thrusday. I usually go in at midnight and owrk till Friday 7am. But, I changed and verified that if I went in at 7p, and got off at 2am and that was kosher. So, in a nutshell, several unexpected errands have come up which require me to be awake in my sleeping hours of 8am-4pm that I have to take care of prior to leaving. SO... I have made arrangements to only work on Thursday from 10p to 2a and will make up the the other 3 hrs I would have been here, next week. No problem. This way I can get some decent rest. Jsut yesterday I was up for 26 hours and only got 5 hours sleep. Why? Well, I didn't do shit all weekend because I was in a funk, wait let me rephrase that, I did visit iron_chef_atl on Friday, we watched the 40-Year Old Virgin which was freaking hilarious! I loved it. but sat, sun, and most of Monday was a wash as I was still in a funk. I had a falling out with one of my bestest and closest friends last sunday and in retrospect, that had an affect on me. As for that, everything will work out. I beleive in that and I know it to be true. I have these 'knowings' that I can't explain other then I know. Maybe it is becase women tend to be more inclined to be sensitive. Not that men arn't, but jsut in general. So to wrap up my huge dialog, I will conceed that I have wasted enough of my companies time and think it is time to get back to work, but if you've made it through this, thanks! ;-) Many huge and smiles to everyone and let me say that Geico actually has bettter prices... I am happy! Smooch!