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WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!! I hate everything about myself and so i take it out on myself...just like always...i've been rather sick of late...but that's ok...Why take care of something you hate anyway? I jsut want to shoot myself in the head and get it all over with...my life is a shambles of realtiy...everything i love hates me in return...everything i touch turns about and bites me...I love a man who...i'm not even sure i should love...but i can't stop even if i wanted to...everthing i say to him is wrong...why can't it be right once in a while? I don't want to argue! I just want something less than apathy...i understand it i give it back...but once in a while i want to be heard and listened to and told "Yea that's cool...or damn that's a terrible idea" I'm giving up...i'm crawling itno a deep dark hole and i'm dying...i'mn ot coming out until i know that things will be well...but as it is...nothing is well and everyhtihg is a foggy and grey...I just want things to be like they were once before when i was younge nad naive and stupid and living in a bubble. Why did you have to pop my Fuckin bubbly Neil? I give up...call me if you wanna actaully say somehting to me...other wise bye!