crap man....just freaking crap...
I opened my eyes to see you breathing...
Your fire streamed down my sinking throat
Burst my tears across this hell you call home.
Will you come in the middle of my night?
Because this blood is always warm.
Drink this love tonight and it's always cold...
Hold me tight until I'm dead with wounds
Angels will carry me to a place of memories...
Then I'll watch you swallow the pills I refuse to take...
Morning coming soon enough to end our time
It's gone today forever in your eyes....
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Didn't go to school today b/c I somewhat had a nervous breakdown. I woke up and just started crying and my mom got mad and was like "you are doing to much!". Then I was like "I have to save money...I have to work..I have to go to school.." and she got pissed.
I do have to work. Money doesn't grow on trees. I mean if I don't start now I'll get no where. I'm not angry at my mom b/c she works two jobs just to keep a place for us to live and food in our stomachs and such. It's not her fault my dad is a bastard. It's not her fault the child support place doesn't give a crap. It's just the way things are. But she wants me to stop working and I just can't do that.
But I really broke down this morning. It was bad. I tried to stop but couldn't. I think I'm ok now. Gosh.
Your fire streamed down my sinking throat
Burst my tears across this hell you call home.
Will you come in the middle of my night?
Because this blood is always warm.
Drink this love tonight and it's always cold...
Hold me tight until I'm dead with wounds
Angels will carry me to a place of memories...
Then I'll watch you swallow the pills I refuse to take...
Morning coming soon enough to end our time
It's gone today forever in your eyes....
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Didn't go to school today b/c I somewhat had a nervous breakdown. I woke up and just started crying and my mom got mad and was like "you are doing to much!". Then I was like "I have to save money...I have to work..I have to go to school.." and she got pissed.
I do have to work. Money doesn't grow on trees. I mean if I don't start now I'll get no where. I'm not angry at my mom b/c she works two jobs just to keep a place for us to live and food in our stomachs and such. It's not her fault my dad is a bastard. It's not her fault the child support place doesn't give a crap. It's just the way things are. But she wants me to stop working and I just can't do that.
But I really broke down this morning. It was bad. I tried to stop but couldn't. I think I'm ok now. Gosh.