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This spring break is kind of odd, it's placement in the month. But I guess it was needed. I finished the first part of my senior project on Wednesday and he had nothing but praise for it. I thought it was a little short so I will be doing research this break, I love the library here. I got a ton of praise for the Dispatch looking so clean -no errors!- Mark said if I wanted to be that dedicated to it I could be. I said no one else was so why not. He didn't seem to get offended at that although I wish he did. Living with 4 girls can also get a little stressing and it feels good to come home to darkness and quiet, although the loudness wasn't the girls it was the boys below. I have to do incredible amounts of laundry and sand down that buffet/ entertainment thingy my mom has. The painting on it is horrible and she doesn't want me to change it but I have to. I'd also like to see what the people before us left in this garage of ours. I heard there's shit in there, maybe there's good shit. I keep thinking about Brooklyn and stuff and it worries me to no end. I know I'll have the money I need to get the apartment and I know that I could probably have a job at the pool over the summer but I don't want to be there and it seems like everywhere I look for a job someone has already gotten there first. My health is probably on my worst list. My Hba1c is probably.. er I'd say 12-14. I can't help it. I don't want to spend money on food so I eat the cheapest shit which is like the worst stuff for you. However, I have noticed that Josh and Chad always eat late because they are always up late and maybe I'll start doing that to try to reduce the night snacking (my death!) I think I'm going to start spending a lot of time in the Dispatch office, like do both the Dispatch and my Senior Proj. there, maybe sleep on the couch once or twice a week. I just need to clear my head a little bit and relax. Last week was so stressing I think I injured my neck from it, I couldn't move my head much for a few days. And now I think I'm getting sick. So anyways, back to Brooklyn. I hope we find an apt. for May 1st because then I'm just moving out of the apt. and into the new one. I'll only stay on campus for class then go to Brooklyn for the rest of the time. It's funny, I used to like staying on campus, now I can't wait to get off. Eh times change I guess. I hope spring brings more friends and more hang out time. I want to still keep working my ass off at the gym but at the same time, I never mailed those resumes out like I promised myself I'd do. I will be running to Staples this week however to buy linen paper. I need to drink a gallon or so of water and I know why. I'm still not ok with the fact that I am sick, and by not taking my meds I am making myself sick. Speaking of sick my sister watched RENT tonight and she kept asking what Angel was sick with, along with the others, and I couldn't answer her because if I said God gave it to you she would be like "Will God give it to me?" and ya know, I'm one of those people who doesn't like to lie to kids but will downgrade the seriousness of things I guess so I couldn't tell her that she'll never get AIDS cuz, what if she does? Anyways now I'm just rambling, so much shit is going on in my head tonight that I can't sleep and don't see myself doing so for a while. Sucks.