today was it...

[pinkpanthermm]

So today was hard! Love stuff surrounded me....then my bestfriend dropped a huge atomic bomb on me and then I saw him.....now I feel like throwing up (I have all day) I want to cry but I want to be strong... I said in my myspace that me and Zac are to meet tomarrow to talk before church and that I didnt know what I wanted out of it or what to expect but the more I think about it I just want closure.....If we are then we are and if we're not then we're not but this not knowing in between stuff is just torture! its like my life is on hold! If I need to move on then let me...but I cant like this...closure, yes thats what I need.... and if we end up back to normal then whatever just make up the mind (trust me all friends who are now thinking in thier heads "she better not be stupid and take him back after this" I will be getting explainations and such before anything) I have this feeling that there will be no "lets go back to us" though....

Next on my list is my BF who dropped the atomic bomb on me....I cant really say anything I guess.....

Mase...if u read this u are soo great! you sweet and funny and just awesome! thanks for helping and talking to me through all this...and your so far away...

well got a history essay to write so let yall know wat happens...