I'm enrolled!
Lots Of confusion going on in my head, I went today to take my placements tests and I talked to a counsler about what classes I was going to take. I choose the bussiness route and basicly broke down b/c I knew in my heart that thats not what God has called me to do. I know God wants me to help people with their animals! I have this passion I've never had for anything else besides theatre, and that says a lot. So I tell Rick that I enrolled as a bussiness major & then he tells me that i should just do the vet tech thing, that he doesn't want to stand in the way Of my dreams! So I thought he actually ment what he said, although in the back Of my mind I knew he really didnt feel that way. So the baby & I get Home and the story changes, he yells at me giving a bunch Of reasons why I shouldn't, how its not benifical to the family, and Ricky Will have to be watched by his grandparents and how I'm turning my back to him if I do this and i'll reep no benifits Of him owning the shop and that we Will have seperate money. He said he Will have his intermident family working with him not his extended family since he can't depend on them. Thats right my husband told me I was his extended family b/c were not blood. Wow i thought we were our own family? So nevertheless I went and signed up for my prerequests (sp?) so I can be on the way to becomming a Vet Tech. I want to feel joyful but its just hard when my hubby wont support my decision.... I asked him tonight what he doesnt call the shots on, he couldn't answer me b/c he calls the shots on everything!! I think he is terrified Of me going to School b/c he doesnt trust me but he has got to forgive & forget or we are never going to be able to move forward.... We really need to have a session with our Pastor, he refuses but I'm praying for it to happen.
Ohoh and get this the work he wants me doing for the shop is clerical work, answering phones, faxing, arrends, payroll....I'm suppose to get my bussiness degree for that!?!?!??!! I told him that what's the use Of getting all that education if im not even going to apply it while I'm working?! A desk job! Ugh how boooring! Dont get me wrong 2 days a week a could see myslef doing it but everyday all day no thanks I would like something more challenging and something that is interesting to me. He told me well sometimes people have to do what they dont like. Really? Even if they had a choice? Ya right! So we ended with not so nice words, he cant understand why I would want to work for someone else and not my family....*sighs* Lord help me do your Will Im here to serve you, loved one!!! AMEN!!
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