ok so.
so i broke up with lamb. it may have been the hardest thing ive ever had to do. i feel better now. but i miss him. there was no one reason. sometimes i wished there had been a reson. some undenyable fault that would explain why i stopped liking him. and im terrified hes going to become the "ex that wont go away" like, the one that takes it upon himself to talk bad about you and spread rumors about you and the such. i really dont want that to happen.
like, things were great while they lasted. but it stopped being good. i just stoped liking him. for no reason onther than time. and i wish i didnt. if i still liked him and we were still going out things would be so easy. but its not real. he thinks i broke up with him to hurt him, or some screwed up shit like that...so hes really pissed. and i guess he decided to talk to dave eddy about me. and "he felt guilty about what they said" that hurts alot. i expect it from dave. but not lamb. its sad because its obvious that lamb idolizes dave, and if he turns into that kinda person then its a waste of a perfectially good human being. dave is just the kinda person that for some reason you want to be friends with. charisma. but underneath hes such a fucking ass.
i still care about him, but not in the way where i would want to date him. and its so painful to see him hurt because he never did anything wrong. like, if he cheated on me, or was on drugs or something, it would make this so much easier.
well ill prolly continue this tomorrow. good insomnight!
like, things were great while they lasted. but it stopped being good. i just stoped liking him. for no reason onther than time. and i wish i didnt. if i still liked him and we were still going out things would be so easy. but its not real. he thinks i broke up with him to hurt him, or some screwed up shit like that...so hes really pissed. and i guess he decided to talk to dave eddy about me. and "he felt guilty about what they said" that hurts alot. i expect it from dave. but not lamb. its sad because its obvious that lamb idolizes dave, and if he turns into that kinda person then its a waste of a perfectially good human being. dave is just the kinda person that for some reason you want to be friends with. charisma. but underneath hes such a fucking ass.
i still care about him, but not in the way where i would want to date him. and its so painful to see him hurt because he never did anything wrong. like, if he cheated on me, or was on drugs or something, it would make this so much easier.
well ill prolly continue this tomorrow. good insomnight!