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so im the worst person in the world! but first, my day yesterday: my baby j came over around 12, we hung out and watched TV and a movie (House On Hounted Hill) and then we went to bens and then over to lsc for boys' league jen left cuz she had to go to camp this morning from 730-10 (icky!) so i went back to bens and it was me ben his mom his dad and his little brother for a while but ben was having people over to play poker. (but i was getting picked up at 10) all in all todd, cam, matt, allen, mike, ben, and mr isaacs all played poker and i sat there and watched. *but now i think if i really tried i could play poker, or at least Texas hold em* and i def owe todd a nickel, cuz i was playing with it, like spinning it and then stopping it but then ben stole it... my bad..
yea okay so i guess i should say why im the worst person in the world. . . . --i dont wanna, but i will-- okay so ben=matts best friend as we all know and i just want to say (now) that i think ben might still like me... but if he doesnt, then i sure as hell dont kno why he kissed me last night. . . AH okay yea so there i said it... i kissed ben last night (and its not like he doesnt kno about matt and me) i dont kno what happened though, AHH i seriously feel so bad though. and of course matt has no clue or at least i dont think he knows...but its not like matt and i were being exclusive or anything.
speaking of matt and i- we talked last night, and we finally came to the conclusion that we should just be friends. it was surprising to me too because he was the one who broughtit up and he is the one who said it, i guess that i felt that if i said something then he would hate me for not wanting to be with him or anything, but i dont kno how much longer i could have gone in that situation with him. when we were talking it seemed like the "main reason" we decided on just being friends was because of school starting and me with vb and the only say ihave off is sunday and thats the day he works, but idk i think there was something else that he wasnt telling me... but then later he said that putting his feelings away for me was going to be hard.. i dont kno anymore, im just glad all that mess is over with.
anyways, when i came home from bens last night, not less than 5 minutes had i been in the house andrew called me. he was in waukegan with his friend and wanted to come over, so i gave him directions and he stopped by and was here for about 15 minutes. o m g have i mentioned how cute he is!?!?! he makes me happy lol and that sounds cheesy as hell lol but its true. except he was throwing money,like coins, at me last night (but he that means i made 32 cents) oh yea and he threw a gum wrapper down my shirt, that was not so much appreciated. he also called me at 230 in the morning last night, but i was sleeping and i didnt want to answer cuz i was too tired ..is that mean? lol oh well, hell get over it :-D
today i think im just hanging out with kara. were not quite sure yet what were gonna do, but well figure it outlol. its nice outside so maybe ill tan or something cuz god knows i need to (lol)
peace up. A town
yea okay so i guess i should say why im the worst person in the world. . . . --i dont wanna, but i will-- okay so ben=matts best friend as we all know and i just want to say (now) that i think ben might still like me... but if he doesnt, then i sure as hell dont kno why he kissed me last night. . . AH okay yea so there i said it... i kissed ben last night (and its not like he doesnt kno about matt and me) i dont kno what happened though, AHH i seriously feel so bad though. and of course matt has no clue or at least i dont think he knows...but its not like matt and i were being exclusive or anything.
speaking of matt and i- we talked last night, and we finally came to the conclusion that we should just be friends. it was surprising to me too because he was the one who broughtit up and he is the one who said it, i guess that i felt that if i said something then he would hate me for not wanting to be with him or anything, but i dont kno how much longer i could have gone in that situation with him. when we were talking it seemed like the "main reason" we decided on just being friends was because of school starting and me with vb and the only say ihave off is sunday and thats the day he works, but idk i think there was something else that he wasnt telling me... but then later he said that putting his feelings away for me was going to be hard.. i dont kno anymore, im just glad all that mess is over with.
anyways, when i came home from bens last night, not less than 5 minutes had i been in the house andrew called me. he was in waukegan with his friend and wanted to come over, so i gave him directions and he stopped by and was here for about 15 minutes. o m g have i mentioned how cute he is!?!?! he makes me happy lol and that sounds cheesy as hell lol but its true. except he was throwing money,like coins, at me last night (but he that means i made 32 cents) oh yea and he threw a gum wrapper down my shirt, that was not so much appreciated. he also called me at 230 in the morning last night, but i was sleeping and i didnt want to answer cuz i was too tired ..is that mean? lol oh well, hell get over it :-D
today i think im just hanging out with kara. were not quite sure yet what were gonna do, but well figure it outlol. its nice outside so maybe ill tan or something cuz god knows i need to (lol)
peace up. A town