its been a while
hey ya'll. sorry i havent updated.. i guess i just havent had much time to. and frankly, id rather not go over every single detail of every single day since the last time i updated. basically i havent been up to much, besides dreading school starting on THURSDAY! (AHHH!)
volleyball tryouts started this week, well last monday, weve gone 8-12 everyday -thats 4 hours a day!! but saturday we only went 8-10 so that was okay. we found out cuts on thursday, i made varsity,but nothing new there. i dont mean to be conceded in any way at all (those who kno me, you kno that i am anything but conceded) but ive been on varsity the past few years so i expected to make it, plus if you saw the other girls youd understand. we have a new coach this year and so far practice hasnt been too bad, considering. but im super happy that rachel is coaching us this year, it should be fun and interesting as well. i have practice from 1030-130 tomorrow though, but its only 3 hours, so thats not too bad.
i went to a wedding last night for a friend of the family, ive known Carrie since i was like born, and her and her sister and her brother all babysat me when i was little. the actual wedding was small, maybe 50-75 people maybe not even that much, and then at the reception there was around 200 people, but still, it was the smallest wedding i have ever been to. i did the Cha Cha slide with my dad. it was so funny cuz he had never done it before and he couldnt really hear the instructions so i had to tell him lol.. it was fun though (good times) and i dance with Steve= Jen's husband, Jen = Carrie's older sister, Carrie=the bride, cuz jen doesnt really like to dance lol. steve thought that i was in college already, he asked me if i was a sophomore and i said no a Jr and he was like where do you go to school and i said waukegan and he was like omg youre still in high school. his wife was like steve! you could get arrested! i dont think i look that old.. its weird, people who dont kno me say that i look older than i am, like 19, and then my friends say the oldest i could pass for is 17 maybe 18.. weirdness.. i realized that weddings kinda make me sad->just because you see 2 people who are so crazy in love with each other and its the sweetest thing in the world, and itslike i cant wait to grow up and have that.. if that makes sense.
ive also been thinking a lot lately, i mean i havent done much so that leaves me with a lot of down time i guess, but idk, ive just been really self-conscience lately. i dont kno why but its like all i see, i mean you see people on TV who are gorgeous and models in magazines and then even random people when you go out, and its like a constant thing to be beautiful and perfect. and im sure everyone goes through this kinda phase, right? and like people have told me that im cute or whatever (like guys.. matt for example) but i never believe them. i mean i dont think that im ugly like the swamp thing, but still.. idk..
ah and this makes me even more mad... i was talking to one of my friends not to long ago and i wont name any names or anything but ive known this girl for about 13 years and weve always been friends but lately i havent talked to her as much and i havent seen her cuz shes been hanging out with all of her other friends, and the girl that lives about 3 houses away (who i think, btw, is corrupting her) but anyways the point of my story is that this girl lives in gurnee, like 10-15 minutes away from my house and she was telling me how she has been hanging out with his guy named josh who lives in wilmette and how she drives all the way to wilmette to hang out with this kid, but all the other times that her and i have wanted to hang out, she wont or "cant" come pick me up. seriously wtf is up with that. thats just fucked up, seriously now. it just makes me mad! but whatever ... i mean i kno that im not best friends with this girl anymore but lately it just seems like were not even really friends, i mean going to different schools is hard enough as it is and i want to keep our friendship going becuase weve had so many good times together and i love her like a sister and i would die for her but the feeling doesnt seem mutual.... why do things have to be so s t u p i d ?!?!?!!
peace ^ A town