grieving.

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i am so shocked and saddened by the virginia tech shootings.

for me personally, this comes after a week in which i was mourning the loss of an english professor and clinging to my very-best memories of stetson--which, for four years, was my home. it was secure. it was where i learned and grew and met my best friends. i can't imagine having the sanctity and the comfort of that taken away--especially in a two-hour timespan on a sunny, windy morning. it's not fair.

my heart breaks for those kids.

and i keep thinking of the professor who was killed who was a holocaust survivor. that, in addition to the student interviews, is what gets me the most when i turn on the news. i don't know if i can quite put it into words, but it's like--he survived that, and then he had his life taken like this? it's just horrific.

this whole thing has reminded me of some crystal-clear realities: hug and love those who mean the most to you. don't let them get away. treat them with respect. give them love.

i am going to be a better person from now on. i am going to try.