(no subject)
(i'm about to do a couple of loads' worth of laundry, and am trying very-hard to put it off. so ...)
observations, etc.:
1. there is something fundamentally disconcerting about forgetting part of the melody of one of your favorite songs. i think that maybe it's even more disconcerting when you're not completely off--just a note or two. i was driving home last night, singing at the top of my lungs to a song that i really-really love but haven't listened to in a long-long while, and when i got to the chorus, the melody in my head was different than the one pounding through my ipod transmitter. weird how time changes things. especially: memory.
2. on that same note, on the way back to my house, i decided to drive through my old neighborhood. the street has long-changed since my five-year-old self frolicked through my former-front-yard; in fact, my old house was bought by the local hospital and turned into a parking lot (along with my old-neighbors'). still, driving down the street last night was odder than usual, especially coupled with my song experience and the way the quarter-moon was casting light on everything. it's funny to think how far i've--we've--come.
3. i am feeling more on-top-of-things right now than i have in a while, and this is because i think i've (started) to come to terms with my life and everything that my life entails (i've been doing a lot-o'-thinking over the past week). i'm paying off bills and paying bills on-time, i'm working hard, and i'm on the road to organization and self-improvement. this is not to say that i have it all-together; i don't. i will never be one of those women in perfectly-pressed clothing with perfect hair and no lipstick on her teeth. i don't want to be. but i'm going to be twenty-three in less-than-a-week, and i think it's time to take responsbility for my life.
4. i have lots i want to do. lots-and-lots. this includes, but is not limited to: celebrating my birthday with my best-friends next weekend. cutting my hair. working out regularly. learning to spend less money. learning to cook. baking a bundt cake for shun. read-read-reading. write-write-writing. getting a passport. using said passport (paris in the spring?). judging less. love-love-loving more.
and speaking of love-love-loving more, i'm off to go spend time with my mom's family, including my two cousins. this picture probably best encapsulates how i feel when spending time with them (they are thirteen and ten, respectively, and equal parts brilliance and beauty, i think):
the end.
observations, etc.:
1. there is something fundamentally disconcerting about forgetting part of the melody of one of your favorite songs. i think that maybe it's even more disconcerting when you're not completely off--just a note or two. i was driving home last night, singing at the top of my lungs to a song that i really-really love but haven't listened to in a long-long while, and when i got to the chorus, the melody in my head was different than the one pounding through my ipod transmitter. weird how time changes things. especially: memory.
2. on that same note, on the way back to my house, i decided to drive through my old neighborhood. the street has long-changed since my five-year-old self frolicked through my former-front-yard; in fact, my old house was bought by the local hospital and turned into a parking lot (along with my old-neighbors'). still, driving down the street last night was odder than usual, especially coupled with my song experience and the way the quarter-moon was casting light on everything. it's funny to think how far i've--we've--come.
3. i am feeling more on-top-of-things right now than i have in a while, and this is because i think i've (started) to come to terms with my life and everything that my life entails (i've been doing a lot-o'-thinking over the past week). i'm paying off bills and paying bills on-time, i'm working hard, and i'm on the road to organization and self-improvement. this is not to say that i have it all-together; i don't. i will never be one of those women in perfectly-pressed clothing with perfect hair and no lipstick on her teeth. i don't want to be. but i'm going to be twenty-three in less-than-a-week, and i think it's time to take responsbility for my life.
4. i have lots i want to do. lots-and-lots. this includes, but is not limited to: celebrating my birthday with my best-friends next weekend. cutting my hair. working out regularly. learning to spend less money. learning to cook. baking a bundt cake for shun. read-read-reading. write-write-writing. getting a passport. using said passport (paris in the spring?). judging less. love-love-loving more.
and speaking of love-love-loving more, i'm off to go spend time with my mom's family, including my two cousins. this picture probably best encapsulates how i feel when spending time with them (they are thirteen and ten, respectively, and equal parts brilliance and beauty, i think):
the end.