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I think im building a new house. Not leterally but i just feel like right now i have been stripped down to just the foudation that i have been given. The foundation being my parents. Its is really funny how in one day things can change so much for one person. I guess it started with finally breaking away from my relationship with Kristin. The following day I was late for work, while driving there I ran out of gas at a stop light. i got out of my car and asked the people behind me to help. They did and i got gas ect. To make a really long story short i come to find out that my car isnt just out of gas but in actualiy my car is fucked for good. So now i need a new car. The funny thing is that it doesnt bother me. i dont mind taking the bus to school, i never did in high school. I feel like my car is gone for 2 reasons one to keep my mind in school and two to keep my ass in Exeter and not at opposite ends of the state. The people that will see me are the ones that can call me on my house number and have ever since 6 th grade. the only thing that has me down right now is the conversation i had with my parents last night. i mean everything that has been going on in my life from them just finding out i had my frenum pierced to telling me if i ever end up with kristin again i will be kicked out. I will be at my house until im dead if that is he case but anyway the point of he conversation was brian your a fuck up and everyone in the family is asking why/ i feel no different than i was a year ago but have made changes that are compleely unlike me. this is what i mean by building a new house. I am doing a little more soul searching. i dont think that hings would be as good for me if it wasnt for keri. She whether she knows it or not is quickly becoming a very important part of my life. keri has to be one of the most genuinely honest and apprecative persons that i know. I dont feel like i deserve her to be appart of my life. i do not know where we are going but i am enjoying every momnt getting there. She right now is my supportng beam. i will slowly build a new house but it will take me some time.