Falling out
Well, i spoke to Danny last night about the whole Disney/orlando thing and its like i dont know what to think anymore. Danny isn't going and we argued last night about his parents and how i dont think its right that he's 18 and has no freedom. e thinks my mom can never say no but its like my mom gave me the freedom i have little by little and we she saw that i was responsible with it she let me do what i want within reason. My mom says no when there is iminent danger there is no FUCKING danger in driving to orlando. He says his parents dont want him driving that far and that he might have sex with me. Its like what the fuck "no i'm sorry i'm not going to try to rape ur son" what could happen on a road trip. Danny says his parents trust him and i dont agree how can someone trust you and then suffocate you so that you can't do anything beyond what the agree with. I have all the freedom i could want and you dont see me a loser do you????? NOOOOOO you dont i work full time i go to school full time i pay my fucking bills on time and i dont ask for help and i think i deserve some fucking freedom. Danny has been driving for over 3 years and his parents think its too far to drive to orlando. What is that? That is called no trust they dont trust him to drive that far they want to keep him in a protective bubble. I know right now his parents must hate me i told Danny not to ask again and he did anyway the argued a bit and i just know his parents think i'm the one behind all the asking. He says the reason why his parents are so upset is that they are worried about him which is understandable but what i dont think is understandable is the fact that they stop him from doing stuff they dont let him learn from his mistakes. Learning from ur mistakes makes u that much more and stonger of a person. You just can't stop living because ur scared of whats going to happen. Que sera sera what will happen will happen wether its a car accident on the way to orlando or choking on something in ur room. When it's your time its your time. The while situation just makes me kinda sick its like i feel like i'm trying to date a 13 year old kid and his parents of course are against it. His parents think we should know each other for at least a year before we can go on a trip i think thats BS. I mean when u make friends at school u dont even know them for a year. I like Danny alot and i thought i could look past the way his parents are and how he really doesn't have freedome but i dont think i can. I need someone who can be my equal someone who can go out with me past 10 or go on a road trip or sleep over my house or stay out all night without a parent check in. I guess i just need someone that has as much freedom as i do and that has parents who trust them. I guess Danny was right when we wanted to wait everything was going to perfect for us i knew something would fuck it up. It's like with Danny to go out with him somewhere we would have to be back by 11, so that means we would be a couple and i would have to wait for a year before i can be alone with my b/f??????????????????????????????????????? I cried last night pathetically because i think its over and i dont think anything will change to make that any different.