Everything in my life
I haven't been blogging for so long, I just have to rant to my heart's desire today.
My first rant:
My first trial on the mooncup today. OMG. I cannot believe how painful it was. At least for someone who has never used a tampon, it sure was an unpleasant sensation. For the uninitiated, the mooncup is my way of showing that I want to stop producing unnecessary waste.
The mooncup, as in name suggests, is a device that is inserted down under to collect your monthly flow. Because it is a reusable silicon cup, it creates literally zero wastage as compared to the use of pads and tampons. I must admit that this must sound totally gross, its a sacrifice I'm willing to make for the better of the humankind. (hur.)
My second rant:
I've been feeling rather lost about my job recently. I don't know if I want to continue teaching after my bond is up. So when the bf suggested that there was a high possibility that he would break his bond and head elsewhere for his phd, I was elated. I saw it as a chance for me to leave with him and really then, I didn't have to make a decision on my part (if you know what I mean).
Thing is, I'll be a fool to say that I do not feel overexploited and underappreciated at times, but the thing that really gets me are the people who lurk in the office. I am there to teach and learn and maybe change some lives (hardly possible but trying for real.). But there are ppl there who think that I do whatever I do for whatever EPMS, and whatever PORTFOLIO and whatever 'show' they I think am trying to direct. And it disturbs and pisses me that ppl can be that competitive. Right down to the most retarded of things. So because of certain other humans, I am forced to re-think my job options. Made to feel depressed and pessimistic about my job. Happy to know that the bf could be my only way out the misery that I'm in now.
My third rant:
So I met up the ex and some other classmates with our partners in tow. It was strange, watching him with a ring in his finger and his wife-to-be in conversation. I suddenly had this feeling that I was watching myself watching everyone from within a space of my own.
I am feeling a tinge of ...... lost? reminiscence? I can't say for sure. I am definitely happy whereever I am now but it strange. All I can say for sure is that at some point in your life, when you forcefully yank something or someone out of your life, no matter how convinced you were before that it was the best thing ever, some thoughts and feelings still come back to haunt you. And it scares me. Sort of.
My first rant:
My first trial on the mooncup today. OMG. I cannot believe how painful it was. At least for someone who has never used a tampon, it sure was an unpleasant sensation. For the uninitiated, the mooncup is my way of showing that I want to stop producing unnecessary waste.
The mooncup, as in name suggests, is a device that is inserted down under to collect your monthly flow. Because it is a reusable silicon cup, it creates literally zero wastage as compared to the use of pads and tampons. I must admit that this must sound totally gross, its a sacrifice I'm willing to make for the better of the humankind. (hur.)
My second rant:
I've been feeling rather lost about my job recently. I don't know if I want to continue teaching after my bond is up. So when the bf suggested that there was a high possibility that he would break his bond and head elsewhere for his phd, I was elated. I saw it as a chance for me to leave with him and really then, I didn't have to make a decision on my part (if you know what I mean).
Thing is, I'll be a fool to say that I do not feel overexploited and underappreciated at times, but the thing that really gets me are the people who lurk in the office. I am there to teach and learn and maybe change some lives (hardly possible but trying for real.). But there are ppl there who think that I do whatever I do for whatever EPMS, and whatever PORTFOLIO and whatever 'show' they I think am trying to direct. And it disturbs and pisses me that ppl can be that competitive. Right down to the most retarded of things. So because of certain other humans, I am forced to re-think my job options. Made to feel depressed and pessimistic about my job. Happy to know that the bf could be my only way out the misery that I'm in now.
My third rant:
So I met up the ex and some other classmates with our partners in tow. It was strange, watching him with a ring in his finger and his wife-to-be in conversation. I suddenly had this feeling that I was watching myself watching everyone from within a space of my own.
I am feeling a tinge of ...... lost? reminiscence? I can't say for sure. I am definitely happy whereever I am now but it strange. All I can say for sure is that at some point in your life, when you forcefully yank something or someone out of your life, no matter how convinced you were before that it was the best thing ever, some thoughts and feelings still come back to haunt you. And it scares me. Sort of.