never forget this
i have been seriously contemplating friendship. the concept, the reality, the fear, the joy. i guess this comes as a direct response to finding myself married, in a new place, and extremely thankful to those who got me this far. because, if you have known me for a while, you know completely that i am incapable of this alone.
so i think back, back to the days when these powerful relationships were just starting and i realize that i have been given more by my friends that i have ever deserved.
i have earned nothing yet because of the love that i know exists at the core of these friendships, i have been sustained by laughter, compassion, and utter blissful insanity.
but, shit, how many times is one person allowed to hurt another? and i have, in my contemplation, realized that the answer is an endless number. bound together by what really joins two people, we pledge an infinite gesture of forgiveness and committment.
i think of those people that traveled many (or even just a few) miles to be at our wedding and i am not able to contain my tears of joy. it is now that i realize i can never give you back all of the things that you have given to me. i can not change the past and would never choose to do so as it contain the seeds of all that moves me and inspires me at this exact moment.
sometimes i have the words to give to you, my beloved, some inkling of my gratitude but sometimes, i just have to trust that you already know.
so i think back, back to the days when these powerful relationships were just starting and i realize that i have been given more by my friends that i have ever deserved.
i have earned nothing yet because of the love that i know exists at the core of these friendships, i have been sustained by laughter, compassion, and utter blissful insanity.
but, shit, how many times is one person allowed to hurt another? and i have, in my contemplation, realized that the answer is an endless number. bound together by what really joins two people, we pledge an infinite gesture of forgiveness and committment.
i think of those people that traveled many (or even just a few) miles to be at our wedding and i am not able to contain my tears of joy. it is now that i realize i can never give you back all of the things that you have given to me. i can not change the past and would never choose to do so as it contain the seeds of all that moves me and inspires me at this exact moment.
sometimes i have the words to give to you, my beloved, some inkling of my gratitude but sometimes, i just have to trust that you already know.