you're winning me over, with everything you say- you rip my heart right out
I was reading old blogs and old entries... my wheels are now turning.
The exact moment a relationship ends, the last thing you say to concrete the finale, it plays back time and time again all the hours and the days following the crash. You will call your best friend and re-tell the conversation word for word. So when do you reach the point where you stop remembering those things- when you leave the land of black and white and suddenly the breaking point is gray and blurred.
"Can't remember, what went wrong last September
Though I'm sure that you'd remind me, if you had to"
Seems like John Mayer always knows what to say. Maybe it is a convenience issue, but I tend to forget what went wrong too. I don't forget mini-road trips, gifts, sleepovers and the nights you didn't sleep because the conversation was too good, the cd player was on loop and the weather was just right. The thing is, though, no matter how hard the nostalgia hits you and how much you have conveniently forgotten- you still aren't together and there is somewhere a reason, or several for that. Funny, how human beings work.
It's hard to see what can come of someone, or a couple, doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result. On a different note, though, aren't things sometimes better the second time around? You can take everything that went wrong and avoid it this time around, keep practicing the things that worked and take a different approach on those that served as the beginning of the end the first time around.
Lately it seems I can't quite complete anything I start, as far as writing goes. I start fashioning ideas in my head and maybe I'll begin a blog but I can't quite get to the important point and then come back down and wrap it up from there. I've decided to try and cure my occasional writer's block by writing even if it's only half way or incomplete, and hopefully sometime later this will inspire a decent piece of writing or I'll have some epiphany as to how to fix this one, and all of the rest.
The exact moment a relationship ends, the last thing you say to concrete the finale, it plays back time and time again all the hours and the days following the crash. You will call your best friend and re-tell the conversation word for word. So when do you reach the point where you stop remembering those things- when you leave the land of black and white and suddenly the breaking point is gray and blurred.
"Can't remember, what went wrong last September
Though I'm sure that you'd remind me, if you had to"
Seems like John Mayer always knows what to say. Maybe it is a convenience issue, but I tend to forget what went wrong too. I don't forget mini-road trips, gifts, sleepovers and the nights you didn't sleep because the conversation was too good, the cd player was on loop and the weather was just right. The thing is, though, no matter how hard the nostalgia hits you and how much you have conveniently forgotten- you still aren't together and there is somewhere a reason, or several for that. Funny, how human beings work.
It's hard to see what can come of someone, or a couple, doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result. On a different note, though, aren't things sometimes better the second time around? You can take everything that went wrong and avoid it this time around, keep practicing the things that worked and take a different approach on those that served as the beginning of the end the first time around.
Lately it seems I can't quite complete anything I start, as far as writing goes. I start fashioning ideas in my head and maybe I'll begin a blog but I can't quite get to the important point and then come back down and wrap it up from there. I've decided to try and cure my occasional writer's block by writing even if it's only half way or incomplete, and hopefully sometime later this will inspire a decent piece of writing or I'll have some epiphany as to how to fix this one, and all of the rest.