Fuckin Nazi Gas horders.
Ok .. so well I'm glad I really dont go anywhere now.. since its fuckin over 3 bucks to fill up .. and places are running out of gas.. I gotta fill up tonight .. god knows how much that'll run me. The world is in shambles.. hahah .. were going to hell in a hand basket and fast.. I'm actually glad to be alive to see all this.. History in the making.
Gotta work tonight .. I've been sleeping alot .. for some reason this week.. tues was a pretty normal day for me .. besides being up retardedly early.. But wens and thurs I slept alot .. more then any decient human being should, maybe I am fighting off a cold or something or depression .. who fuckin knows.. I dont care besides I'm missing quality time with me mum. I'm not dreading work .. as usual cause I dont have to work monday .. which means.. I only have to deal with people tonight for an hour give or take... and then the weekend no one will be around so I have the whole bloodly place to myself to listen to music talk on the phone and read or sing or dance or whatever tickles my fancy to stay awake. I'm so happy about not having to work Monday .. get to actually have an extra day to chill.. I gotta sit down and figure out finances.. and I have to go get my meds refilled tues since I went yesterday and there was going to be a 3 hour wait.. I said fuck it .. I'll reschedual. Thurs I have to go see my gyn. He's giving me my orders for the hosptial, and whatever else.. and then I need to go to the hosptial to get some preadmittion testing bullshit out of the way.. I guess they need blood .. and to figure out what blood type I am .. which is cool cause I've always been rather curious as to my blood type.
I got alot done today .. still have some shit to accomplish next week.. but not much. I got my room clean.. and changed my sheets. I'm working on the 4 loads of laundery I have to do.... I cleaned up the kitchen the other day .. and my bathroom is clean .. despite the makeup tossed about and random hair dryer and hair straightener ascue.
I guess I'll just finish my laundery and take a shower before I try to lay down before work.
I need to clean the house next week .. have everything in some order before I have the surgery so I'm not worrying about the shit while I'm all gimped up.
My boss was cool with lettin me take 2 days off work cause of the surgery... so thats good.. I have to let him know for sure soon .. I was waiting on my insurance to pull through .. the lady at the doc office said I was without coverage which is about a bunch of bullshit... so I called and was liek What the fuck .. and they said I was covered some big confusion about shit since I'm on cobera now. But it's all resolved hopefully just waiting to hear back from chick to offically get the days off.
My hearts still broken .. but what the fuck can I do about it .. I have resolved to get pissed instead of crying. Crying never did anyone a damn bit of good.. Anger is the key.
Once I get this surgery bit out of the way .. I am gonna try to tuck some money asside to get a membership at the gym and start working out. I'm on this new med that is suppose to help my body use food more efficently .. and help the polycystic ovarian disease I have. So I want to shed some pounds and get back to looking fine as a mother fucker.
Also I want to try to take a little money and go buy some decient art supplys and clear that heap of junk comp off my desk and fuckin start painting again .. I saw a table top easel which is perfect because I Hate painting standing up, get some lights for over my desk .. and maybe some new brushes and paint. I was also thinking about taking up my violin lessons again.
Its just time to do shit for me .. and do shit to get my mind off, of my problems. I've racked my brain to solve them .. there isnt anyway out just have to pray and ride the storm out.. but I dont want to have to think of the shit.
I'm really looking foward to the Genitortures show the 26th my mom is being a angel and working that monday for me so I can go.. I just need to convince someone to go with me.. lmao Hopefully it wont be to hard.. and worst come to worst fuck it .. I'll go myself.. I've missed them 3 times because of bullshit like I couldnt get offa work .. my car accident .. and then someone not going with me... so fuckkkkk it .. I'm going, even though I dont have a bloody thing to wear..
Maybe I can trade some of the clothes I Was gonna sell at the curvey exchange for some fetish type clothes to wear to the show.. the only thing remotley fetish I have is pleather pants and a corset. I have an Idea of what I Want .. but to outright buy it would be toooo damn expensive.. oh well I'll figure out something.. even if I have to try to make it ..
Well I'm off to do laundery ..
fun..
Anyone wanna talk this weekend just gimmie a ring.
Gotta work tonight .. I've been sleeping alot .. for some reason this week.. tues was a pretty normal day for me .. besides being up retardedly early.. But wens and thurs I slept alot .. more then any decient human being should, maybe I am fighting off a cold or something or depression .. who fuckin knows.. I dont care besides I'm missing quality time with me mum. I'm not dreading work .. as usual cause I dont have to work monday .. which means.. I only have to deal with people tonight for an hour give or take... and then the weekend no one will be around so I have the whole bloodly place to myself to listen to music talk on the phone and read or sing or dance or whatever tickles my fancy to stay awake. I'm so happy about not having to work Monday .. get to actually have an extra day to chill.. I gotta sit down and figure out finances.. and I have to go get my meds refilled tues since I went yesterday and there was going to be a 3 hour wait.. I said fuck it .. I'll reschedual. Thurs I have to go see my gyn. He's giving me my orders for the hosptial, and whatever else.. and then I need to go to the hosptial to get some preadmittion testing bullshit out of the way.. I guess they need blood .. and to figure out what blood type I am .. which is cool cause I've always been rather curious as to my blood type.
I got alot done today .. still have some shit to accomplish next week.. but not much. I got my room clean.. and changed my sheets. I'm working on the 4 loads of laundery I have to do.... I cleaned up the kitchen the other day .. and my bathroom is clean .. despite the makeup tossed about and random hair dryer and hair straightener ascue.
I guess I'll just finish my laundery and take a shower before I try to lay down before work.
I need to clean the house next week .. have everything in some order before I have the surgery so I'm not worrying about the shit while I'm all gimped up.
My boss was cool with lettin me take 2 days off work cause of the surgery... so thats good.. I have to let him know for sure soon .. I was waiting on my insurance to pull through .. the lady at the doc office said I was without coverage which is about a bunch of bullshit... so I called and was liek What the fuck .. and they said I was covered some big confusion about shit since I'm on cobera now. But it's all resolved hopefully just waiting to hear back from chick to offically get the days off.
My hearts still broken .. but what the fuck can I do about it .. I have resolved to get pissed instead of crying. Crying never did anyone a damn bit of good.. Anger is the key.
Once I get this surgery bit out of the way .. I am gonna try to tuck some money asside to get a membership at the gym and start working out. I'm on this new med that is suppose to help my body use food more efficently .. and help the polycystic ovarian disease I have. So I want to shed some pounds and get back to looking fine as a mother fucker.
Also I want to try to take a little money and go buy some decient art supplys and clear that heap of junk comp off my desk and fuckin start painting again .. I saw a table top easel which is perfect because I Hate painting standing up, get some lights for over my desk .. and maybe some new brushes and paint. I was also thinking about taking up my violin lessons again.
Its just time to do shit for me .. and do shit to get my mind off, of my problems. I've racked my brain to solve them .. there isnt anyway out just have to pray and ride the storm out.. but I dont want to have to think of the shit.
I'm really looking foward to the Genitortures show the 26th my mom is being a angel and working that monday for me so I can go.. I just need to convince someone to go with me.. lmao Hopefully it wont be to hard.. and worst come to worst fuck it .. I'll go myself.. I've missed them 3 times because of bullshit like I couldnt get offa work .. my car accident .. and then someone not going with me... so fuckkkkk it .. I'm going, even though I dont have a bloody thing to wear..
Maybe I can trade some of the clothes I Was gonna sell at the curvey exchange for some fetish type clothes to wear to the show.. the only thing remotley fetish I have is pleather pants and a corset. I have an Idea of what I Want .. but to outright buy it would be toooo damn expensive.. oh well I'll figure out something.. even if I have to try to make it ..
Well I'm off to do laundery ..
fun..
Anyone wanna talk this weekend just gimmie a ring.