despondency
To you who had my heart,
Can you hear my heart breaking? Its been a very very long time since I felt this kind of pain.. when you took your leave without word.. did you know.. I thought about you daily .. and wondered how you are.. and wonder what might be, could have been . who knows.. I never knew what you wanted.. and you never asked what I wanted.. and if you did. maybe I would be to scared to tell you. You touch the weakest part of me, the most fragile.. and maybe you dont know .. but you broke it. I know I can be a pain in the ass... but you knew that from the start... you knew the kiind of person I was, I am .. strong willed, independent, honest and blunt. In a truthful confession bearing my heart.. I loved you .. I still do.. the winter that was my heart was warmed.. I wanted you, and a life with you .. I struggled to trust, to have faith.. my own weakness. I wish we could start over.. and really talk.. like we did years ago .. I remember .. hours we spent talking about our lives and what we wanted.. to bad communication failed so horribly. So what am I left with ... is it so easy for you to move on .. I dont want to .. but will.. But I vow.. I will never love another.. I will never feel this pain again.. I cant tollerate it.
Can you hear my heart breaking? Its been a very very long time since I felt this kind of pain.. when you took your leave without word.. did you know.. I thought about you daily .. and wondered how you are.. and wonder what might be, could have been . who knows.. I never knew what you wanted.. and you never asked what I wanted.. and if you did. maybe I would be to scared to tell you. You touch the weakest part of me, the most fragile.. and maybe you dont know .. but you broke it. I know I can be a pain in the ass... but you knew that from the start... you knew the kiind of person I was, I am .. strong willed, independent, honest and blunt. In a truthful confession bearing my heart.. I loved you .. I still do.. the winter that was my heart was warmed.. I wanted you, and a life with you .. I struggled to trust, to have faith.. my own weakness. I wish we could start over.. and really talk.. like we did years ago .. I remember .. hours we spent talking about our lives and what we wanted.. to bad communication failed so horribly. So what am I left with ... is it so easy for you to move on .. I dont want to .. but will.. But I vow.. I will never love another.. I will never feel this pain again.. I cant tollerate it.