Dejected isnt even the word..
.. Hhaha .. god.. mass suicide seems like a really good idea at this moment..
I slept for shit last night.. or this morning.. got up .. try to do a few things. make a few calls.. but my mom tells me .. my dad called this morning bitching about how cobera is going to cost him 400 bucks a month and he cant pay for all of it .. and blah blah .. Ya know I really fuckin hate my dad.. I wish he would just leave me the fuck alone.. I dont want his fuckin money .. I dont want fuckin cobera .. I dont give a shit if I have insurance.. I dont care if my very womb curls up and rots in my gut.. and then proceeds to fall out my ass.
Mom and thomas are on the war path again .. I dont blame her for her feeling or emotions or reasons.. I know what she is going through and I tried once again to move him to some sence in the matter.. and nodda.. NO one fuckin listens to me .. and now he is killing her .. and she is getting really in deep depression ..and I tried to tell her to go to the doc and get some meds.. she doesnt want to .. seems to think she can pull herself out of it .. or openly admitted to me .. she might not .. and who knows..
I fuckin hate this helplessness...
I have no friends..
LMAO ... nothing unusual there.. people seem to use me when its convient for them, and then bolt.. and dont give a rats ass.
This week is fallin apart..
I slept for shit last night.. or this morning.. got up .. try to do a few things. make a few calls.. but my mom tells me .. my dad called this morning bitching about how cobera is going to cost him 400 bucks a month and he cant pay for all of it .. and blah blah .. Ya know I really fuckin hate my dad.. I wish he would just leave me the fuck alone.. I dont want his fuckin money .. I dont want fuckin cobera .. I dont give a shit if I have insurance.. I dont care if my very womb curls up and rots in my gut.. and then proceeds to fall out my ass.
Mom and thomas are on the war path again .. I dont blame her for her feeling or emotions or reasons.. I know what she is going through and I tried once again to move him to some sence in the matter.. and nodda.. NO one fuckin listens to me .. and now he is killing her .. and she is getting really in deep depression ..and I tried to tell her to go to the doc and get some meds.. she doesnt want to .. seems to think she can pull herself out of it .. or openly admitted to me .. she might not .. and who knows..
I fuckin hate this helplessness...
I have no friends..
LMAO ... nothing unusual there.. people seem to use me when its convient for them, and then bolt.. and dont give a rats ass.
This week is fallin apart..