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but i want him back so bad. I dont really know if he was cheating on me. I was just guessing.
He cant stop loving me. I gave him everything. I was so good to him it just doent make sense.
I havent ate in 2 days and every time i try to put food in my mouth i want to throw up. and im so sick, i feel like im going to faint, i feel like im going to the hospital.
I slept alll day and im still too weak to even do anything.
I need to fix my ipod and i need to dance and dance and it will save me. I havent danced in so long.
And its the only thing that could cure me right now.
And my ipod broke.
Im so stupid when it comes to George, he was my everything. And if i cant have him, i just might die.
CAuse i know ive never felt like this in my life, and i dont like it one bit.
This cant just be thrown away after four years.
If we dont make it, love doesnt exist. Why did he do this when i came here?
Im tired of being sorry.
And if we do end for good.
Im coming back home. Because i cant like knowing he is 20 min. away from me having the best time of his life without me.
Ill come back home, and till try to start over. I said ill try.
But we have to fix it. we have to. Im dieing inside.
i really feel like im dieing.