So, August is over? WTFFFFFFFF
It's 2 o'clock in the afternoon Greek time. That means folks of America you are all probably SLEEPING as im writing this. As it is 7 in the morning, or maybe you are just getting up.
My day is slowly but surely coming to another end.
Let me give you some updates if you care to read.
I was in IKARIA for just a little over one month, and thank god i ( Read more... )
I did cut class this morning though, because I dropped PIlates and Latin and didn't feel like going to Pilates just to leave after one day. And I have a class about Piracy in 40 minutes...he hinted we would watch Pirates of the Caribbean today, that's pretty cool.
Anyway, I really do get everything you said, and it does make me feel a little bit better. I guess it's not so much that I'm scared of school and classes as that I'm scared that I'm making the wrong decisions (because I do that quite a lot, you know), and I just get so, so afraid, when I think that one day I'm going to wake up and be 40 and have to ask, "what the hell did I do with my life?" And part of me wants so many things- almost all of which are unrealistic, but I know that I don't want to go through life with a career or a job that I hate, but at the same time, everything I've ever been interested in has fizzled out after not too long...and what I'm left with is acting. Which is so ridiculous, because I've been in like, two plays my whole life and I don't even know if I'm a good actress, and you have to be, to make it in a college course. But, like everything else Ive ever been interested in, this came upon me suddenly, with a vengeance, and is wreaking havoc on my life, because now, the urge to act is taking over and the only way to follow thru on it is to try and get in some acting productions so that if I do apply to a theater college (and I probably won't, because I won't get in), I'll need experience that I don't have.
You know what? I don't think I like writing my problems on LJ because I'm going in circles. I am going to save all my issues for when we talk on the phone, because I like it better when you give me advice face to face (well, in a manner of speaking...phone to phone, now, I guess).
So give me a missed call whenever you have time to talk. I have class fr the next two hours, but then I'm free for the whole day.
I love you. Thanks for laughing at my being rational and the end of whole long rant, it made me laugh too.
Filakia apo ameriki
Stacie
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