chews of tastica.
Well in my countdown i have : 3 days until i am on a plane to Greece.
Sitting here up late at night at my sisters house i think about what
this summer is going to be like. With nicole and kate going, things
should be totally different then i can really imagine. but not in a bad
way. just in a better way i guess, because i know if something should
go wrong...i have them there to just know what to do to make me feel
better. But, with all hopes being high, and with the way this year
turned out...nothing in my mind can be so absolutly terrible that i
need the comfort of them..not saying i dont want it! ah...you get the
gist. The things i used to be excited for about greece. *wink* im not
really excited for. Well i am but, i know there is so much more out
there that i know i can explore and have just as an amazing time as i
ever did, without having to think i need to do a certain one thing
everynight. im sorry this is not in well written detail and hard to
understand, because i am not fully descriing what i am talking about
it;s because im talking about in a broad sense..of things that could
happen from now until sept. when im gone.
Yesterday was my real birthday and my parents got me a beautiful necklace with my name on it. Kaitlyn, Deanna, and matt came over bright and early to hang out with me. Rouli not only remembered my birthday but called to tell me that he is going crazy that he feels like this past week has taken forever to go by. Which is SO true. ahah. blah blah we chatted, and told me when i got there we can do anything i wanted, which for SURE i already have everything i want to do planned out! CLUBS BABY WHATTT!!!! ahaha. later on in the night skid and mitch came over. we all left and went to skida's house and hung out more....but with a little bit more fun. The beast next store was screaming and cursing. Ew! it was pretty funny though. The whole night was enjoyable just in the sense that i got to be with people i love before i left. That was the last time iw as going tos ee deanna before i left and when i dropped her off we hugged for about 5 min. straight. me and nicole didnt get to sleep until 6:30 in the morning, and it was gleaming light inside the bedroom. We talked about life, like we usually do and we fell asleep. Thanks everyone who made my real birthday amazing. ahha. I dont know what to do about point dexter. I am thinking about leaving him here for this summer....but then i think how he ALWAYS comes with me to greece. I feel soo bad. and yes yes i know he is a stuffed bear, but...i just feel like something willl be missing if i dont bring him. So...yeah i need to think more on that subject. Me and kate got matching plane outfits, which are A-DOOR-A-BLE! hehe. wow all i can say is i cant wait! 3 days, and ahh i just cant even think about it. it doesnt feel real.
ok so on a deeper topic.With everything ive been through i have learned such amazing valuable lessons about life, people, the real world, maturity, and complacement. so while I was reading one of my friends my spaces and they had this quote there. Which i thought, was soo amazing. it really is true to the things i realized this year, and just it touched my heart. hehe. i wanted to post it here so i always have it, and when i start to get mad or upset over something so childish and soo stupid i can look back at this to make me feel better again. put me back to the mentality i was before i got mad or something of that sort.
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"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding hands and sharing a life. And you learn that love doesn’t mean possession, and company doesn’t mean security, and loneliness is universal. And you learn that kisses aren’t contracts, and presents aren’t promises, and you begin to accept your defeat with your head up and your eyes open, with the strength of a woman, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build your hopes on today, as the future has a way of falling apart mid-flight. Because tomorrow’s ground can be too uncertain for plans, yet each step taken in a new direction creates a path, towards the promise of a brighter dawn. And you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and nourish your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that love, true love, always has joys and sorrows, seems ever present, yet is never quite the same. Becoming more than love, and less that love. So difficult to define. And you learn that through it all, you really can endure, you really are strong, that you do have value. And you learn and grow. With every goodbye, you learn."
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Yesterday was my real birthday and my parents got me a beautiful necklace with my name on it. Kaitlyn, Deanna, and matt came over bright and early to hang out with me. Rouli not only remembered my birthday but called to tell me that he is going crazy that he feels like this past week has taken forever to go by. Which is SO true. ahah. blah blah we chatted, and told me when i got there we can do anything i wanted, which for SURE i already have everything i want to do planned out! CLUBS BABY WHATTT!!!! ahaha. later on in the night skid and mitch came over. we all left and went to skida's house and hung out more....but with a little bit more fun. The beast next store was screaming and cursing. Ew! it was pretty funny though. The whole night was enjoyable just in the sense that i got to be with people i love before i left. That was the last time iw as going tos ee deanna before i left and when i dropped her off we hugged for about 5 min. straight. me and nicole didnt get to sleep until 6:30 in the morning, and it was gleaming light inside the bedroom. We talked about life, like we usually do and we fell asleep. Thanks everyone who made my real birthday amazing. ahha. I dont know what to do about point dexter. I am thinking about leaving him here for this summer....but then i think how he ALWAYS comes with me to greece. I feel soo bad. and yes yes i know he is a stuffed bear, but...i just feel like something willl be missing if i dont bring him. So...yeah i need to think more on that subject. Me and kate got matching plane outfits, which are A-DOOR-A-BLE! hehe. wow all i can say is i cant wait! 3 days, and ahh i just cant even think about it. it doesnt feel real.
ok so on a deeper topic.With everything ive been through i have learned such amazing valuable lessons about life, people, the real world, maturity, and complacement. so while I was reading one of my friends my spaces and they had this quote there. Which i thought, was soo amazing. it really is true to the things i realized this year, and just it touched my heart. hehe. i wanted to post it here so i always have it, and when i start to get mad or upset over something so childish and soo stupid i can look back at this to make me feel better again. put me back to the mentality i was before i got mad or something of that sort.
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"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding hands and sharing a life. And you learn that love doesn’t mean possession, and company doesn’t mean security, and loneliness is universal. And you learn that kisses aren’t contracts, and presents aren’t promises, and you begin to accept your defeat with your head up and your eyes open, with the strength of a woman, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build your hopes on today, as the future has a way of falling apart mid-flight. Because tomorrow’s ground can be too uncertain for plans, yet each step taken in a new direction creates a path, towards the promise of a brighter dawn. And you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and nourish your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that love, true love, always has joys and sorrows, seems ever present, yet is never quite the same. Becoming more than love, and less that love. So difficult to define. And you learn that through it all, you really can endure, you really are strong, that you do have value. And you learn and grow. With every goodbye, you learn."
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