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I wish my internet worked quickly...My mind works a lot faster than it and I am going to pass over what I want to talk about...written on my SN.
better...
Ok so yes, I do not want to have sex till I am married. Have I thought about it, yes a lot. There are times when I think I am ready, than I really thinkg about it...and I am not. I am scared. Why thought, why do I have to be..why me? I mean yeah it's a good thing to be waiting till I am married but ug. I hate the media. Sex is not like it use to be. There are kid 6 years yonger than me haveing it and probably a lot.
I have thought about doing it with [not sure about Tom], Brian, Jeremy, Dan [on a different level], Rob...Yeah I wanted to but than I think, I am not ready and I am scared. Scared of it hurtting [I am more scared of haveing sex for the frist time than haveing a kid. Yes I know strange], and scared of what will happen after, like with me and him or anything...
Why are all my sex rants the same...
Now I am at a writer's block.
Honestly I really want to just go have sex with someone right now, just to get the fucking think over with but than again I want to wait. I hate being an adult.
This blows and I do not ever know why.
I am going...
I am going to watch TV, try to take my mind off it and sleep.
Night.
cAa
better...
Ok so yes, I do not want to have sex till I am married. Have I thought about it, yes a lot. There are times when I think I am ready, than I really thinkg about it...and I am not. I am scared. Why thought, why do I have to be..why me? I mean yeah it's a good thing to be waiting till I am married but ug. I hate the media. Sex is not like it use to be. There are kid 6 years yonger than me haveing it and probably a lot.
I have thought about doing it with [not sure about Tom], Brian, Jeremy, Dan [on a different level], Rob...Yeah I wanted to but than I think, I am not ready and I am scared. Scared of it hurtting [I am more scared of haveing sex for the frist time than haveing a kid. Yes I know strange], and scared of what will happen after, like with me and him or anything...
Why are all my sex rants the same...
Now I am at a writer's block.
Honestly I really want to just go have sex with someone right now, just to get the fucking think over with but than again I want to wait. I hate being an adult.
This blows and I do not ever know why.
I am going...
I am going to watch TV, try to take my mind off it and sleep.
Night.
cAa