My night was seriously screwed
Last night i lied, yelled, became enraged, and cried. I lied about being with mike last night, he called margarita to see if i was really with her, cause that was the lie. I yelled at him for checking up on me! I became enraged when he sent margarita text messages about how there was no reason to live, and that he was gonna kill himself. I called rommel because he wouldn't answer my phone calls. Finally he ended up with rommel, and rommel gave him the phone to talk to me. I had to re-explain everything. I told him who i was really with. I cried when i was explaining how i thought he was being selfish by even saying he was gonna kill himself. I told him that there were other people in his life that he should think about before he should even think about that shit. He said some shit about how he doesn't want his mom to keep thinking that he's a drunk or an addict. I yelled with tears about how a mother would rather have a son who's a drunk, or an addict that not have her son at all. He couldn't understand anything i was saying to him. Finally i found a way in, and what a surprise, talking about God. I want to be there for David, i just don't know how and that is why he is so mad at me right now. I'm a distant person, and i want space. I just can't handle all his emotions right now. I don't know if all of this makes sense, but i don't really care. So all this happened with mike at my house, i felt really bad, what kind of host am i? I actually had a great week up until last night, but i guess it was still good cause mike was with me after all of it happened.
Well a few nights ago mike took me up in his plane again. It was nice! And because it was at night there was a lot to see, he flew me over temecula instead of just plain old hemet, i had a really good time. He's been staying with me at my parents house the past four nights. What a slut, i know...j/k i'm still good!!I like that he's there with me, even though i get no sleep and have to wake up early for work.
I've been seriously reconsidering within the past two days if i should go back to vanguard or not. enough said, cause i can't think about it right now....
I had a party while my sister was gone, got totally wasted and had a blast. I can say one thing though, i would do it again, just try not to take as many shots as i did.
I'm done for now, and i'm off to the drive-in, maybe...
Well a few nights ago mike took me up in his plane again. It was nice! And because it was at night there was a lot to see, he flew me over temecula instead of just plain old hemet, i had a really good time. He's been staying with me at my parents house the past four nights. What a slut, i know...j/k i'm still good!!I like that he's there with me, even though i get no sleep and have to wake up early for work.
I've been seriously reconsidering within the past two days if i should go back to vanguard or not. enough said, cause i can't think about it right now....
I had a party while my sister was gone, got totally wasted and had a blast. I can say one thing though, i would do it again, just try not to take as many shots as i did.
I'm done for now, and i'm off to the drive-in, maybe...