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when the hell am i going to be fucking happy! im so sick of guys wanting sex it disgusts me all i want is for someone to fucking like me for me! i fucking miss devon sooooo bad its tearing me up inside andi fucking hate how he doesnt feel like i do, i hate outting myself out there only to get hurt. everytime. i know hes probably with another girl, not caring or hurting as much as i am, and i dont want to keep on thinking about it. i dont want to hurt i dont want to cry randomly i dont waant to date any guys cuz im not happy at all. devons not a bad guy though, thats what is hard. i wanted things to work out and i thought they would but they never do, annd then trying to get over him and go out with another guy only to find out he wants sex pisses me off sooooooooooooo bad. im so sick of it. what do u do when the person who makes u happy and makes u feel better is the one who makes u cry in the first place?. he doesnt know how much im hurt. i dont he ever will