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it has been like a trillion years since i've updated. here it goes:
these past few months have been quite interesting. first i had to go through that painful, yet neccessary event in my life. Broken hearts are not nice or pretty BUT it was neccessary and i think i was too scared to realize that i truly needed to be done with it. i guess i got used to the routine of having someone and just that person by my side. even if it wasnt all that great. I look back and do not regret anything but realize that the person that i am now has definetely grown up from the person i was back then. and yes i know EVERYONE and their mothers has told me like everyday...I TOLD YOU! SHOULDVE DONE IT A LOOONG TIME AGO. i know but sometimes i can be stubborn and not see the truth.
IT'S ALL OVER WITH and its just another chapter in my life.
on with better news...
i have a job at FIU! i work in the MARC building with the Sponsored Research dept. i love it! its full time with benefits and i get school paid (some of it)!!! the best thing of working on campus is that i can see my girls and friends whenever i want!!! its great!!i wasnt kidding when i said fiu was my second home!
i've reunited with my old highschool/freshman year of college buddies! its funny how things happen the way they do. we got back together right when i was at a low point. and eventhough we had been seperated for two years...they were right there with me as if we had never grown apart. it was because of them that i was able to get up and get myself back on track. and before i get yelled at...CHRISTINE was there with me at every step too. LOVE YA!!
one more thing that came out of my "reunion" was that i met new friends. and then something happened. someone came into my life and deep down inside i knew there was a reason for it. so it started as just friends of friends. then it was hanging out a little more..then as i was an emotional wreck, this someone stayed around and we got to know eachother...and then it happened. i had a dream...we all know that i see dreams as symbols. In that dream i was happy. the happiest person ever, laughing and smiling like never before and it just so happened i was with this one person. It was the best feeling in the world. i woke up with the biggest smile, and then i went "uh oh" i went online and told christine and she said something that stuck in my head. ever since then, i haven't cried, been sad, upset, angry, humiliated, or abandoned. in fact i done remember having been this happy! my mom has noticed and she is overjoyed at my new self because she has never seen me act like this since i was like 5. she is suuuuuper happy. and i'm suuuuper happy. and its all great!!! so yes things happen for a reason and my "reason" is awesome!!!!
in the end i'm happy with the way things turned out. my heart is smiling once again and all the cracks and bruises are finally going away! yay!
these past few months have been quite interesting. first i had to go through that painful, yet neccessary event in my life. Broken hearts are not nice or pretty BUT it was neccessary and i think i was too scared to realize that i truly needed to be done with it. i guess i got used to the routine of having someone and just that person by my side. even if it wasnt all that great. I look back and do not regret anything but realize that the person that i am now has definetely grown up from the person i was back then. and yes i know EVERYONE and their mothers has told me like everyday...I TOLD YOU! SHOULDVE DONE IT A LOOONG TIME AGO. i know but sometimes i can be stubborn and not see the truth.
IT'S ALL OVER WITH and its just another chapter in my life.
on with better news...
i have a job at FIU! i work in the MARC building with the Sponsored Research dept. i love it! its full time with benefits and i get school paid (some of it)!!! the best thing of working on campus is that i can see my girls and friends whenever i want!!! its great!!i wasnt kidding when i said fiu was my second home!
i've reunited with my old highschool/freshman year of college buddies! its funny how things happen the way they do. we got back together right when i was at a low point. and eventhough we had been seperated for two years...they were right there with me as if we had never grown apart. it was because of them that i was able to get up and get myself back on track. and before i get yelled at...CHRISTINE was there with me at every step too. LOVE YA!!
one more thing that came out of my "reunion" was that i met new friends. and then something happened. someone came into my life and deep down inside i knew there was a reason for it. so it started as just friends of friends. then it was hanging out a little more..then as i was an emotional wreck, this someone stayed around and we got to know eachother...and then it happened. i had a dream...we all know that i see dreams as symbols. In that dream i was happy. the happiest person ever, laughing and smiling like never before and it just so happened i was with this one person. It was the best feeling in the world. i woke up with the biggest smile, and then i went "uh oh" i went online and told christine and she said something that stuck in my head. ever since then, i haven't cried, been sad, upset, angry, humiliated, or abandoned. in fact i done remember having been this happy! my mom has noticed and she is overjoyed at my new self because she has never seen me act like this since i was like 5. she is suuuuuper happy. and i'm suuuuper happy. and its all great!!! so yes things happen for a reason and my "reason" is awesome!!!!
in the end i'm happy with the way things turned out. my heart is smiling once again and all the cracks and bruises are finally going away! yay!