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So- where to begin?
At the begining of this year, I vowed that 25 would be "my best year yet"
Has it been?
Well, yes and no.
The year is half way over, and I don't feel as though I have accomplished many of the goals I set for myself. Possibly, because as usual, these goals were unreasonable and unattainable. I need to start slowly. Not dive in head first...which is how I usually do it and end up bumping my head and forgetting where I started and what my intentions were.
On the same token, I am 25. There are things, in particular, that I need to get over and deal with. The only one holding me back is me.
Which is probably the most frustrating of all hold backs.
I have several opportunities in front of me that could leave me extremely happy or emotionally broken. What will I do? Well, of course, I would like to take the path pointing to happiness. Realistically, I may sit back and watch it pass me by--again.
I guess one of my main goals is open myself up. To people I have an interest in. Once-in my 25 years of living did I do this..which at the time was a very difficult task as well--and I was hurt. Will this happen again? Likely not. I subconsciously know that; however, as hard as I push, I continue to obtain the same results.
If you keep giving what you've always been giving, you'll keep getting what you've always been getting.
I have driven nearly every one of my friends nuts with the situation I am in. Everyone, tells me, again and again, how I need to do this and I am stupid if I don't move on it.
Well, I guess that I am stupid.
What is the worst that could happen?
Well, I don't know. Although I know the probability that situation would be in my favor is around 90%--I unfortunately can not force myself to put myself out there. Who's fault is it? Mine and mine alone.
Yes, the person before hurt me. But essentially, I let them. And I am letting them win by not emotionally moving on. Although I am done-physically, emotionally, mentally with this person (aside from friends of course, I can't stop caring) I am letting the past control me. The past and this person.
What can I do aside from deal with it and move forward.
On the bright side: there are still around 4 months to complete my unrealistic goals. A step in the right direction is better than not taking a step at all I guess.
Whoa-sorry I rambled.
At the begining of this year, I vowed that 25 would be "my best year yet"
Has it been?
Well, yes and no.
The year is half way over, and I don't feel as though I have accomplished many of the goals I set for myself. Possibly, because as usual, these goals were unreasonable and unattainable. I need to start slowly. Not dive in head first...which is how I usually do it and end up bumping my head and forgetting where I started and what my intentions were.
On the same token, I am 25. There are things, in particular, that I need to get over and deal with. The only one holding me back is me.
Which is probably the most frustrating of all hold backs.
I have several opportunities in front of me that could leave me extremely happy or emotionally broken. What will I do? Well, of course, I would like to take the path pointing to happiness. Realistically, I may sit back and watch it pass me by--again.
I guess one of my main goals is open myself up. To people I have an interest in. Once-in my 25 years of living did I do this..which at the time was a very difficult task as well--and I was hurt. Will this happen again? Likely not. I subconsciously know that; however, as hard as I push, I continue to obtain the same results.
If you keep giving what you've always been giving, you'll keep getting what you've always been getting.
I have driven nearly every one of my friends nuts with the situation I am in. Everyone, tells me, again and again, how I need to do this and I am stupid if I don't move on it.
Well, I guess that I am stupid.
What is the worst that could happen?
Well, I don't know. Although I know the probability that situation would be in my favor is around 90%--I unfortunately can not force myself to put myself out there. Who's fault is it? Mine and mine alone.
Yes, the person before hurt me. But essentially, I let them. And I am letting them win by not emotionally moving on. Although I am done-physically, emotionally, mentally with this person (aside from friends of course, I can't stop caring) I am letting the past control me. The past and this person.
What can I do aside from deal with it and move forward.
On the bright side: there are still around 4 months to complete my unrealistic goals. A step in the right direction is better than not taking a step at all I guess.
Whoa-sorry I rambled.