i've got a lot on my mind.
here's what i think. i think i'm just wasting my time and being consumed by thoughts for someone that likely isn't thinking about me in return. maybe the sooner i cut this away the more quickly i will return to the real person that i am. i feel like this isn't even a part of me so how can it hurt? i just worry that once i get back to myself i'll be gloomy again; things have a way of working out like that. but really. i'm tired of trying. it's getting me nowhere.