feeling sorry for myself...somethin i havent done for awhile...
so ya, as my subject states, im kinda feeling sorry for myself. and because i havent for awhile doesnt give me an excuse...idk...i guess maybe i feel kinda lonely. mom and drew are in bed. sav and meg r at school and all my other friends are in mcpherson or somewhere no where near me. and i just feel sad. cause i miss them. im so excited for colorado, but this is so much harder than i thought it would be. why did i have to start dating someone at this point? im not sayin that i regret it or anything like that, but it just makes it so much harder. sounds so cheesy....but seriously. idk...i guess im just bein a girl or something. im gettin nervous and stressed. i dont know what to expect and that makes me real nervous. its like, why dont they tell u anything? are they afraid theyre goin to scare us away or something. if i want to get right down to it, im scared because i know this is going to stretch me so much. im prolly goin to be stretched so far out of my comfort zone that....i dont even know what. i think im ready for it, but part of me, naturally, is very scared. i just keep praying that the excitement will overrule this fear. im sick of fear. im so sick of it. why cant i just get over myself and everything that holds me back. that is my prayer. to just get over my fear. to be fearless.
my heart by paramore
i am finding out then maybe i was wrong
that ive fallen down and i cant do this alone
stay with me this is what i need, please
sing us as a song and we will sing it back to you
we could sing our own, but what would it be without you
i am nothing now and its been so long
since ive heard a sound, the sound of my only hope
this time i will be listening
sing us a song and we will sing it back to you
we could our sing our own but what would it be without you
this hear, it beats
beats for only you (this heart)
my hear is yours
(my heart, it beats for you)
this heart, it beats
beats for only you
my heart is yours
(please dont go now, please dont fade away)
my heart is yours
i really like that song...
my heart by paramore
i am finding out then maybe i was wrong
that ive fallen down and i cant do this alone
stay with me this is what i need, please
sing us as a song and we will sing it back to you
we could sing our own, but what would it be without you
i am nothing now and its been so long
since ive heard a sound, the sound of my only hope
this time i will be listening
sing us a song and we will sing it back to you
we could our sing our own but what would it be without you
this hear, it beats
beats for only you (this heart)
my hear is yours
(my heart, it beats for you)
this heart, it beats
beats for only you
my heart is yours
(please dont go now, please dont fade away)
my heart is yours
i really like that song...