worry wart
so this weekend was amazing. haste the dizzay rocked the hizzouse!!! idk....lol...it was so great to see amber. i miss her so much. she has changed and so have i, but we r still great friends....i love it...i love friends...i love relationships....but yet they can really stress me out too...lol...but seriously...i just dont know....the grass is always greener on the other side...when ur single u wish u had a boyfriend, then when u get one, its like what am i doing with my life? but maybe this is just because of where i am in life...i mean, there are so many things i wanna do in my life, and i just dont see how it could work with a boyfriend...long distance is hard...im bad at communication...and i just dont see how it could work...but if its supposed to it will...right?....but what if its not supposed to? then why go into it now? why cant i just trust? why do i have to worry about the future? why cant i just live in the here and now? i worry waaaayyyy to much and i hate it. lord change me........