Writer's Block: All Broken Up
It just happened yesterday morning, like a nightmare come alive.
The tears won't stop, at times when I'm alone.
Though it's hard to let things go, I know for you I need to do so.
I need to stop this pain, this weariness we've been struggling with.
With your plate so full it's overwhelming, it's wearing us out. You especially.
It's just a state where it's something we can't cope with.
For I can't bear to be your burden, I've to let you go.
For the issues I couldn't resolve with you, I'm handing you to Him.
I pray that he's bring you to where you ought to be.
And may you find peace within. I pray you'd find your guiding light, and be brought to greater heights.
I'd pray that you may come to terms with those issues that has been weighing you do for the longest time ever. I know there's plenty of them. For those that I know of, I'd keep you in my prayers. For those dark secrets you've not let me in on, I'd pray that he'd send an angel to set your worries free. I'd pray for your safety you silly boy of mine, for there are just too many things bout' you that keeps me worried. Things you do, or don't. Call me silly, call me foolish, you're one thing I won't stop worrying about, no matter how much you'd try to convince me that you'd take care of yourself.
You're just so very dear to me.
I'm sorry for being so helpless, I couldn't help you.
There were moments I should have lent you my hand, out of the bad tempered nature I am, I didn't.
Here I am, without you as my partner, I'm handing you to Him.
Your partner I may no longer be, I'd still wish for that boyish smile of yours to find your face again.
The genuine laughter that rose from the bottom of your heart to find you once more.
That "I don't care but I want it now' face I'd wanna keep. May I? I want it to be something we used to call ours. Along with the many memories we shared. My exclusive notebook you'll always be, somewhere deep down in my heart. I know you've not forgotten. You've just kept it somewhere deep within, for it to be called ours. Yours and mine.
I'd keep you in my prayers, I'd pray for you to find the strength to fight this war.
The battle has not been won, it's just begun.
I'll stand by you here, you'd know where to seek me.
24/7 I may not promise, but I'll try my very best.
I won't promise for it's nothing we both believe in.
Neither will I give you my word, cause it's just the same old silly thing.
I'd be right here, somewhere only we know.
This thing has been draining us so much for the longest time ever.
I'm sorry for not letting you go when you wanted to.
Yet I'm thankful for your efforts in attempting to make things work.
Thank you for the past 8 months we've shared.
Thank you for the memories we've shared that made me smile yet weep for it's just another reminder that we're no longer a pair, a reminder that you're no longer my partner, my commitment.
I really wanted us to last. I really wanted love to hold us together.
I really do. You'd know.
However, when the thought of you no longer being mine, me no longer being yours, rips me apart in spots I never knew existed.
I'm still so very much in love with you.
A pair we may not be, I still care.
Please remember that.
Though its hard to let you go,
In the fathers hands we know.
That a life time's not too long to live as friends.
You'll always be loved.
Always and always.
The tears won't stop, at times when I'm alone.
Though it's hard to let things go, I know for you I need to do so.
I need to stop this pain, this weariness we've been struggling with.
With your plate so full it's overwhelming, it's wearing us out. You especially.
It's just a state where it's something we can't cope with.
For I can't bear to be your burden, I've to let you go.
For the issues I couldn't resolve with you, I'm handing you to Him.
I pray that he's bring you to where you ought to be.
And may you find peace within. I pray you'd find your guiding light, and be brought to greater heights.
I'd pray that you may come to terms with those issues that has been weighing you do for the longest time ever. I know there's plenty of them. For those that I know of, I'd keep you in my prayers. For those dark secrets you've not let me in on, I'd pray that he'd send an angel to set your worries free. I'd pray for your safety you silly boy of mine, for there are just too many things bout' you that keeps me worried. Things you do, or don't. Call me silly, call me foolish, you're one thing I won't stop worrying about, no matter how much you'd try to convince me that you'd take care of yourself.
You're just so very dear to me.
I'm sorry for being so helpless, I couldn't help you.
There were moments I should have lent you my hand, out of the bad tempered nature I am, I didn't.
Here I am, without you as my partner, I'm handing you to Him.
Your partner I may no longer be, I'd still wish for that boyish smile of yours to find your face again.
The genuine laughter that rose from the bottom of your heart to find you once more.
That "I don't care but I want it now' face I'd wanna keep. May I? I want it to be something we used to call ours. Along with the many memories we shared. My exclusive notebook you'll always be, somewhere deep down in my heart. I know you've not forgotten. You've just kept it somewhere deep within, for it to be called ours. Yours and mine.
I'd keep you in my prayers, I'd pray for you to find the strength to fight this war.
The battle has not been won, it's just begun.
I'll stand by you here, you'd know where to seek me.
24/7 I may not promise, but I'll try my very best.
I won't promise for it's nothing we both believe in.
Neither will I give you my word, cause it's just the same old silly thing.
I'd be right here, somewhere only we know.
This thing has been draining us so much for the longest time ever.
I'm sorry for not letting you go when you wanted to.
Yet I'm thankful for your efforts in attempting to make things work.
Thank you for the past 8 months we've shared.
Thank you for the memories we've shared that made me smile yet weep for it's just another reminder that we're no longer a pair, a reminder that you're no longer my partner, my commitment.
I really wanted us to last. I really wanted love to hold us together.
I really do. You'd know.
However, when the thought of you no longer being mine, me no longer being yours, rips me apart in spots I never knew existed.
I'm still so very much in love with you.
A pair we may not be, I still care.
Please remember that.
Though its hard to let you go,
In the fathers hands we know.
That a life time's not too long to live as friends.
You'll always be loved.
Always and always.