Cheesey Shit.
It's been a long time since I've been here to pen my emotions. I've been living each day with doubt, and it's been the one of the really nasty feelings. I suppose it all boils down to it being that it takes 2 hands to clap. With just one really wanting to make things work, the other simply gets all tired, and especially when she really wants him to be around, he isn't.
I can't remember the last time we had a good laugh together, nor the last time I really spoken to you. Words I've been wanting to share with you just gets shoved aside, piling up till' I don't really know what to share with you anymore. When you're out of reach, I'm left with all but myself and my other loved ones to give me the support I need. As I type, I'm weeping silently. It's been the longest time since I've last cried over us. Maybe, I'm just really tired. I really wanted to work things out, I really wanted to stand by you, but I never really got the chance to.
Nevertheless, I thank God for giving me the strength to fight on, to embrace the challenges, to learn from yet another lesson.
With this, I started off the morning well. It's a wonderful Fiday, a great day that I look forward to every week, especially since I am working 5 day work weeks. My contract with The BC has been extended till July, just a week before my stint with NIE begins. I'm am going to be on a 2 year education and 3 year bond with NIE. I'm faced with mixed emotions, of which anticipation is the strongest of all.
Work has been good, I've been learning a lot on the job. Things like Photoshop and Dreamweaver learned in school came in handy. XD The BC is a rather nice place to work at I reckon.
Anyway, being a Friday, I headed to Tanglin Mall to get some stuff printed for Dad. I had my favourite lunch from Tanglin Mall too.
I got some Lilies from the supermarket for Darling Esther. =) The flowers smelled so good! And were very pretty too! Thia wants flowers too! XD
Anyway, I met Esther for KYV but plans got foiled with the lack of slots at Party World. We ended up shopping, even though I didn't buy anything. I suppose that shopping in stores do bore me nowadays.
I'm tired and I ought to head to sleep. I've still a long day tomorrow! Toodles!