pink, purple, blue....bras

[pinkigirli]

It becomes more and more unclear as to what i really think is going on. sometimes its up sometimes its down. perhaps i will find something, someone hiding under my bed today but tomorrow they will be sitting on my bed demanding me to feed them food. food which i have so much of but still dont understand why i have it. my desk is cluttered with things like that, things i dont understand. i wish my desk would just fold up and go away. yet, that does not mean that school is over. that would just make me sad. i dont get homesick but i get people desired. i miss people from cypress more than i miss people from santa barbara. the computer tells me when i am being crazy and requiring too much of life : function not available. system is down. reboot. these commands speak to me. i am not a computer person so i am going to leave it behind. well minus listening to music. i like me my music. i like dancing too. i like getting dressed up to go out and go dancing. it means that its time to be admired and i like being admired. being admired is on the top of my list. the furthest thing down on my list is finding a job. it should move up tho. crap
joostin, i will see you next friday ya?