stuck ina forward motion
so sunday is going to be a day of hard decisions. scott leaves on monday and sunday is his "farewell" talk and yet levi leaves on wednesday and so therefore his "farewell" talk is sunday as well. you would of course say choose scott over levi cuz i've known him longer...but scott is kinda lame with me right now and my brother is playing at Levi's. well scotts ends at 12 and levi's starts at 12, i believe so i think ill try and do both....if thats possible.
prom was prom. not as good as i expected because i went with the wrong person but who can be blamed except me. i have a lesson to anyone who is a junior....do not take someone who already graduated to prom, unless its a long time girl/boyfriend. a friend or prospect date is not going to enjoy it. everyone i talked to that brought an outside date didnt enjoy prom. whatever.
what do you do when you know you are sick but cant stop yourself from staying quiet?
haha, one month exactly left of school for seniors. vicky and i were talking about it in gov today. i cant believe its so close. college is right there. i remember in elementry school i thought college was so grown up. now im there and i dont feel like i am grown up enough. am i that mature? honestly no, but others are. this is going to be fun.
i found a bunch of the poems with the pennies on them from my grandpa's funeral. you'd be amazed at what you keep despite the fact that you dont need it. we have a bag full of the ceremony programs...but becuase it was such an emotional day, no one can bring themselves to toss them. they carry no value, one is sufficent to capture the memory, but yet a person still feels that if you throw them away its betrayal to the soul of that person immortalized by those flimsy sheets of paper. i just wish my mom would put them somewhere other than on the workbench in the computer room. its too close to the surface and helps me recall those times, with pain and without. i am going to be horrible and say that i'd rather not have that memory stirred up often. cant i just ...
its been a hard week, but tomorrow it stops, and thats when the AP test is over and classes go back to once a day....ugh, just when block scheduling was getting normal.
can i just skip all this stuff and move onto the future. working so hard and not knowing if anything will be accmplished? i hate this. please just tell me if what im doing will eventually yeild profitable results or just turn to crap. fast forward.
"if i were ruler of the world...... there would be no bombs, no hate, no war, i'd just make sweet love to you"
prom was prom. not as good as i expected because i went with the wrong person but who can be blamed except me. i have a lesson to anyone who is a junior....do not take someone who already graduated to prom, unless its a long time girl/boyfriend. a friend or prospect date is not going to enjoy it. everyone i talked to that brought an outside date didnt enjoy prom. whatever.
what do you do when you know you are sick but cant stop yourself from staying quiet?
haha, one month exactly left of school for seniors. vicky and i were talking about it in gov today. i cant believe its so close. college is right there. i remember in elementry school i thought college was so grown up. now im there and i dont feel like i am grown up enough. am i that mature? honestly no, but others are. this is going to be fun.
i found a bunch of the poems with the pennies on them from my grandpa's funeral. you'd be amazed at what you keep despite the fact that you dont need it. we have a bag full of the ceremony programs...but becuase it was such an emotional day, no one can bring themselves to toss them. they carry no value, one is sufficent to capture the memory, but yet a person still feels that if you throw them away its betrayal to the soul of that person immortalized by those flimsy sheets of paper. i just wish my mom would put them somewhere other than on the workbench in the computer room. its too close to the surface and helps me recall those times, with pain and without. i am going to be horrible and say that i'd rather not have that memory stirred up often. cant i just ...
its been a hard week, but tomorrow it stops, and thats when the AP test is over and classes go back to once a day....ugh, just when block scheduling was getting normal.
can i just skip all this stuff and move onto the future. working so hard and not knowing if anything will be accmplished? i hate this. please just tell me if what im doing will eventually yeild profitable results or just turn to crap. fast forward.
"if i were ruler of the world...... there would be no bombs, no hate, no war, i'd just make sweet love to you"