everytime i turn around... i fall in love and find my heart faced down...
............... ~* Something's gotta go wrong cuz I'm feelin way too damn good... And it's like.. Everytime I turn around.. I fall in love and find my heart faced down... And where it lands is where it should... This time it's like.. The two of us should probably start to fight... Cuz something's gotta go wrong cuz I'm feelin way too damn good... ohhhhhh... *~
*sighs* .... so "D" is in NH this week.... and it really sucks cuz i miss him... and i hate missing him... and its so stupid... i dont understand why i like him... i dont understand that even tho he pisses me off alot and sometimes makes me feel like shit... and really seems to be fucking with my head... i still like him.. i cant make myself walk away from him even tho i know i should... I DONT GET IT... i dont know what it is about him that makes me this way...
so yeah... hes in NH for the week.. and i dont think he took his cell phone with him... cuz i havent heard from him since saturday night... and i sent him txt messages but he never replied... and i think i remember him saying something about forwarding all his calls while he was up there... *sighs* i dunno.... hes only been gone a day and im dying without him... grrrr that pisses me off...
im really just so confused right now... i really cant figure out what it is that he has over me that makes me not able to walk away from him.. i just dont know... its not like im just stupid and cant see how he is... because i do.. and i know i should just walk away from him and that this could become a potentially bad relationship... but i just cant make myself do it... i cant make myself stop talking to him and stop being with him... i just cant... even tho i know its bad... its like an addiction... like people who smoke... they know its bad for them.. and they want to quit but they cant.. its like that.. its exactly like that... but at least ppl addicted to smoking have a logical excuse... they are addicted to the nicotine.... i have NO excuse... im just addicted to... him... i dont know what it is about him... but im addicted to it...
aaaahhhhh im gonna drive myself fucking crazy thinking about this all the time...
i need something new to keep my mind occupied... unfortunately theres nothing new going on... wtf... somebody help me out here.. damn...
................ ~* Now that I've realized.. That I'm going down.. From all this pain you've put me thru.. Everytime I close my eyes.. I lock it down oh.. I Can't Go On Not Loving You... *~
ok i have to go sleep before i really drive myself nuts.... somebody help me out here... words of advice, encouragement, something, anything... please tell me....
....... ~* I walk a lonely road.. The only one that I have ever known.. Don't know where it goes.. But it's home to me And I walk alone... I walk this empty street.. On the Boulevard of broken dreams.. Where the city sleeps.. And I'm the only one and I walk alone.. I walk alone.. I walk alone... I walk alone... I walk a.... My shadows the only one that walks beside me.. My shallow hearts the only thing thats beating.. Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me... Till then I walk alone.... *~
*sighs* .... so "D" is in NH this week.... and it really sucks cuz i miss him... and i hate missing him... and its so stupid... i dont understand why i like him... i dont understand that even tho he pisses me off alot and sometimes makes me feel like shit... and really seems to be fucking with my head... i still like him.. i cant make myself walk away from him even tho i know i should... I DONT GET IT... i dont know what it is about him that makes me this way...
so yeah... hes in NH for the week.. and i dont think he took his cell phone with him... cuz i havent heard from him since saturday night... and i sent him txt messages but he never replied... and i think i remember him saying something about forwarding all his calls while he was up there... *sighs* i dunno.... hes only been gone a day and im dying without him... grrrr that pisses me off...
im really just so confused right now... i really cant figure out what it is that he has over me that makes me not able to walk away from him.. i just dont know... its not like im just stupid and cant see how he is... because i do.. and i know i should just walk away from him and that this could become a potentially bad relationship... but i just cant make myself do it... i cant make myself stop talking to him and stop being with him... i just cant... even tho i know its bad... its like an addiction... like people who smoke... they know its bad for them.. and they want to quit but they cant.. its like that.. its exactly like that... but at least ppl addicted to smoking have a logical excuse... they are addicted to the nicotine.... i have NO excuse... im just addicted to... him... i dont know what it is about him... but im addicted to it...
aaaahhhhh im gonna drive myself fucking crazy thinking about this all the time...
i need something new to keep my mind occupied... unfortunately theres nothing new going on... wtf... somebody help me out here.. damn...
................ ~* Now that I've realized.. That I'm going down.. From all this pain you've put me thru.. Everytime I close my eyes.. I lock it down oh.. I Can't Go On Not Loving You... *~
ok i have to go sleep before i really drive myself nuts.... somebody help me out here... words of advice, encouragement, something, anything... please tell me....
....... ~* I walk a lonely road.. The only one that I have ever known.. Don't know where it goes.. But it's home to me And I walk alone... I walk this empty street.. On the Boulevard of broken dreams.. Where the city sleeps.. And I'm the only one and I walk alone.. I walk alone.. I walk alone... I walk alone... I walk a.... My shadows the only one that walks beside me.. My shallow hearts the only thing thats beating.. Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me... Till then I walk alone.... *~