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today is miss bines's birthday!!! i love her like a stoner loves a hookah. saturday is the party and after the party there's the after party! ha! actually the party is at lauren's house... lauren has 4 cats... i'm allergic to cats. i'll probably not be having as much fun as everyone else but i'm sure i could use my powers of being a girl to have someone drive me home so i don't die while trying to sleep (like last time). in any event i'm baking another cheesecake today for more money... this shit rocks. tomorrow it's stuffed shells... if i feel like waking up early to do it. i figure i'll make two pans and leave one for mom to bring in for the night folk.
in other news beasty's dad is still an asshole after all these years. he disappeared again for a few days... i'm sorry but if you're going to be a father... DO IT. don't be all sorts of half assed about it... because that's stupid beyond stupid.
on a final note (kinda) feelings suck... because even if you get a mini hint of something... not even a feeling... you're in a position for someone to let you down. basically, i'm fighting this crap like a fish out of water fighting to breathe.
it's just not going to happen right now... i can't let go again
p.s. i'm busy having too much fun
in other news beasty's dad is still an asshole after all these years. he disappeared again for a few days... i'm sorry but if you're going to be a father... DO IT. don't be all sorts of half assed about it... because that's stupid beyond stupid.
on a final note (kinda) feelings suck... because even if you get a mini hint of something... not even a feeling... you're in a position for someone to let you down. basically, i'm fighting this crap like a fish out of water fighting to breathe.
it's just not going to happen right now... i can't let go again
p.s. i'm busy having too much fun