I ponder....

[pinkie28]

So, today and tonight I thought all about my previous entry about my friend. I talked to others, that are close to me, about it. Everyone different, they all say the same thing(which I'm not going to put in here). However, after deep thought, I don't really like drama or whatever you want to call it. So I looked at the entire situation. If he doesn't want to drink with me then fine, that's his decision. I have tons of fun with him whether or not I'm drunk or he's drunk or we're sober. He's a wonderful person and I love that boy with all my heart. I figured why be upset with him because he fears something, I can't be upset about that. I know you're not supposed to live life with regrets, however I do regret writing that entry. Not because I said what I said(which was mostly out of anger), but because he's my closest friend here and he has been nothing but wonderful to me and it's stupid and immature of me to be angry over something so insignificant. What I will regret is if I hurt his feelings in any way shape or form, I never would purposely do that. No, I do not want to leave pittsburgh to get away from him or this situation(if that's what you want to call it). That's like me saying I want to get out of pittsburgh because I'm angry with Trevor. I hate being away from those closest to me and I want to be around those that I love and enjoy spending time with.
I'm sorry baby, love you.

Well, I'm going to bed now.

XoXo ~ Jenna