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i am a dumb girl.
i wish i could take my brain out, stomp on it, and put it back in without the emotions. i hate them. i think i would rather feel no emotions than sad ones.
my back still hurts today, which is bringing me down. like, bringing me down bad. it makes me feel old, and helpless and it hurts so bad sometimes it makes me cry. nothing has helped so far. I need to lose weight, I think that might help. Then again, I may have injured myself picking up something heavy at work. either way, i hope the doctor knows how to fix it. I am almost to the point of going to the urgent care center, because I don't know if I can make it til the 4th.
i am now entering my 6th straight day of work. wouldn't be so bad if my bones worked.
so, im really not as emo today as it sounds. just somethings in my life that I have to witness that I don't like to witness. but i have to remember that things change and nothing lasts forever, so this too shall pass and life will still go on.
life goes on. thats kind of comforting in a strange way.
cant wait for incubus. or dci. or anything else that may be fun. i wish it was sun-shiny today.
i wish i could take my brain out, stomp on it, and put it back in without the emotions. i hate them. i think i would rather feel no emotions than sad ones.
my back still hurts today, which is bringing me down. like, bringing me down bad. it makes me feel old, and helpless and it hurts so bad sometimes it makes me cry. nothing has helped so far. I need to lose weight, I think that might help. Then again, I may have injured myself picking up something heavy at work. either way, i hope the doctor knows how to fix it. I am almost to the point of going to the urgent care center, because I don't know if I can make it til the 4th.
i am now entering my 6th straight day of work. wouldn't be so bad if my bones worked.
so, im really not as emo today as it sounds. just somethings in my life that I have to witness that I don't like to witness. but i have to remember that things change and nothing lasts forever, so this too shall pass and life will still go on.
life goes on. thats kind of comforting in a strange way.
cant wait for incubus. or dci. or anything else that may be fun. i wish it was sun-shiny today.