hell on earth
week 2 of class and i've cried almost every day. that would be me in the bathroom at school bawling my eyes out. i've even located a new handicap washroom that i can go into to cry so noone hears me. as for home...i have been crying for over an hour now and have cried every single night except for friday...because it was friday, and that made me happy. i despise engineering....i have never wanted to do anything less. today i am crying because i can't even begin to understand my lab for tomorrow. not like i understood any of my labs for last week but this one is due at the end of the lab period and i would not even know where to start. i've made notes, reread it a million times, but i just don't get it and never will. i would give anything in the world not to have to do this anymore, but everyone is always so fucking PROUD of me that i have no choice anymore. i'm not living my life, i'm enduring a hell that people seem to think i enjoy. engineering makes me suicidal, but who gives a fuck.
such is life.
such is life.