a little better than before...
First, Charity, you make me smile and rock my world slash I miss you and want to see you SOON! (maybe this weekend???)
So I have been proactive in not wanting to cry everyday and changed a whole lot about my life. For example, I am taking a week off of work....don't know what this means but I know I need it. Second, I dropped my night class!! I will now be taking ASL 5 days a week at 11 am. On tues and thurs I will then head straight to UW and attend two more classes that are back-to-back until 5pm. Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays I will only have ASL and work...yay! I am quitting Senate. Well, I don't like to say quit. More, I am beginning to take care of myself and no longer want to defend myself, my identity and community in a room that is unsafe. (by quitting I mean I will probably proxy my vote every tuesday unless something really important, such as my resolution, are on the floor). AND I AM GOING BACK TO DANCE. Tuesday nights I am not defending myself in senate, I am dancing!!!!! So, basically it took being angry, mad and crying for two weeks to come to the conclusion I have to change something. I don't really feel good about it all, but I do feel like they are necessary changes for my health and well-being. WOW, what am I going to do with all my evenings????
A lot of these changes also have to do with the recognition that I will be leaving UW soon and need to begin to slowly seperate myself.
So I have been proactive in not wanting to cry everyday and changed a whole lot about my life. For example, I am taking a week off of work....don't know what this means but I know I need it. Second, I dropped my night class!! I will now be taking ASL 5 days a week at 11 am. On tues and thurs I will then head straight to UW and attend two more classes that are back-to-back until 5pm. Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays I will only have ASL and work...yay! I am quitting Senate. Well, I don't like to say quit. More, I am beginning to take care of myself and no longer want to defend myself, my identity and community in a room that is unsafe. (by quitting I mean I will probably proxy my vote every tuesday unless something really important, such as my resolution, are on the floor). AND I AM GOING BACK TO DANCE. Tuesday nights I am not defending myself in senate, I am dancing!!!!! So, basically it took being angry, mad and crying for two weeks to come to the conclusion I have to change something. I don't really feel good about it all, but I do feel like they are necessary changes for my health and well-being. WOW, what am I going to do with all my evenings????
A lot of these changes also have to do with the recognition that I will be leaving UW soon and need to begin to slowly seperate myself.