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So I never write in this thing cuz it's not like anyone reads it. But I am gonna express my 'emotions' cuz it's not something I really do or enjoy doing. Well except when it comes in the form of wanthing something real bad, bitchiness, silliness, or any emotion brought on by drugs. Anyway I'm feeling this really weird feeling lately. Something I haven't felt or allowed myself to feel in a really long time let's just call it a school girl's crush. Like that feeling you get in your stomach and strange thoughts. Personally I think I just need to get laid like bad. And it's not like I can't I could get laid easily but thanks I am not a slut and won't just go fuck anybody. And vibraters nah no thanks nothing compares to the real thing well when it is good! But when you've had good sex not amount of medicore sex well make up for it so why even bother. Or like maybe I just hang around gay men too much I need some straight man time. I don't know. Also it's kinda boring living by myself. I want a roommate but not a crazy bipolar old bitch like the last one. All I seem to do is watch movies and eat junk food instead of doing anything productive. Oh and waste lots of money buying cute shit for my house that I don't need but like. Retail therapy is my therapy. And I'm not going back to NJ til June and I miss is a lot. Spring Break just needs to come sooner because it's too much stress with school and lack of sex. The end.