Confused
Ok i dont know whats going on with me and everything, i dont know why i dont feel good or why i dont feel like talking to anyone anymore, seems like i am just getting annoyed and i dont like it, i feel like i am going to be going back to my old ways, just dressing up in all black and not talking to anyone and not caring one bit about anything, i have no clue why i feel like this but i hope that it stops now cause i dont know if its just mixed emotions of everything in this world or just doubts about everything and everyone around me, no specific people just every one in general, ive never been annoyed like this and i wish i wasnt but i cant change it cause knowing myself i cant change a thing that happens to me and i dont know why i cant i just dont want things to stay the way it is with myself right now, ive been so happy lately that i dont know, i dont know about a lot of things lately, i just have a feeling that is making me depressed and stuff and i cant control it and its making me even more depressed, today i got annoyed by like probably about 6 people and in my classes i couldnt stay focused all i could do today is think about hatred on everyone that i set my eyes on that i didnt like like i was actually going to do something about it and i was just gonna like go up to them and just say nothing and sock them just to start a fight for no reason. Right now i think that people should just stay away from me cause i am lost inside myself and i cant handle the memories i see when i close my eyes, its just like flashes of pictures when i blink and i cant handle it. Like i said, i dont know whats happening to me and i bet i wont find out for a while till i probably think about everything in my life or maybe if i just close my eyes and see the pictures that come to me. I dont know im lost and this is no joke cause i dont fuck around with stuff like this, Depression does not make me happy, Depression takes over me for a while once its here. If i flip out on anybody im just going to say it right now that im sorry if i do flip out on you or give attitude.