today was hard!!
ok i'm going to start right from the beginning and try to get this in some sort of order
So 3 months before my 18th birthday i had lived happily for most of my 18 years NOT having had to go to a funeral 6 months later and i've been to 3 and i have another one tomorrow they are the hardest thing in the world i cant cope with them I just cant do it anymore
Today we laid to rest Annie Page a woman who i loved and respected for so long and now she's gone but the hardest part was having to see 3 other people whom i love with all my heart in so much pain and grief Sheena, Elizabeth and Isabel i love them so much and today they had to put their mother to rest and its just so damn hard its not fair its just not fair and i physically cant do it anymore. The hardest thing i had to do today was go up to these three people - i cant tell you how much they mean to me but i'm going to keep trying anyways - and i hugged everyone of them and i tried to comfort them in their time of mourning and sorrow but realistically anything i was to say to them right there and then wasnt going to make a difference Mrs Page is gone and theres not a damn thing we can do about it. You have no idea how hard it is to watch someone you love and would do anything for in so much pain and fighting so hard to stay strong but failing and all you can do is sit and watch and be there for them - its too hard - hugging those three people today was the hardest thing i've EVER had to do in my whole life and i never ever want to feel like i did today - it was a feeling of grief, and mourning and of helplessness and when i see thos three people utter dispair - no-one will ever understand these three people have been there for me my WHOLE life they've not missed a minute of it - they are my rocks there when you need them loving till the end. Today i've seen a side of Elizabeth ive never seen - in 18 years ive never seen it - she's always tries to be so professional and she's ALWAYS ALWAYS everyone elses shoulder to cry on. Today she was standing in a huddle crying her eyes out on her two sister's shoulders you've no idea how hard it was to watch! Sheena god i love this woman so much she is my biggest rock out of the three and we are as she puts it her 'weans' and i'll happily be her wean for the rest of my life she's been there through everything and now its our turn to be there for her. Isabel you we so brave today i dont know how you did it you held yourself together better than i did.
Now my eyes are killing me from crying so much and i have make up everywhere except from where it should be so i'm going to go and pull myself together and get ready for tomorrows funeral
Much Love
Sarah xxx
RIP Annie Page January 1922 - April 2007
THough i walk through the valley of the shaddow of death
I will fear no evil!
So 3 months before my 18th birthday i had lived happily for most of my 18 years NOT having had to go to a funeral 6 months later and i've been to 3 and i have another one tomorrow they are the hardest thing in the world i cant cope with them I just cant do it anymore
Today we laid to rest Annie Page a woman who i loved and respected for so long and now she's gone but the hardest part was having to see 3 other people whom i love with all my heart in so much pain and grief Sheena, Elizabeth and Isabel i love them so much and today they had to put their mother to rest and its just so damn hard its not fair its just not fair and i physically cant do it anymore. The hardest thing i had to do today was go up to these three people - i cant tell you how much they mean to me but i'm going to keep trying anyways - and i hugged everyone of them and i tried to comfort them in their time of mourning and sorrow but realistically anything i was to say to them right there and then wasnt going to make a difference Mrs Page is gone and theres not a damn thing we can do about it. You have no idea how hard it is to watch someone you love and would do anything for in so much pain and fighting so hard to stay strong but failing and all you can do is sit and watch and be there for them - its too hard - hugging those three people today was the hardest thing i've EVER had to do in my whole life and i never ever want to feel like i did today - it was a feeling of grief, and mourning and of helplessness and when i see thos three people utter dispair - no-one will ever understand these three people have been there for me my WHOLE life they've not missed a minute of it - they are my rocks there when you need them loving till the end. Today i've seen a side of Elizabeth ive never seen - in 18 years ive never seen it - she's always tries to be so professional and she's ALWAYS ALWAYS everyone elses shoulder to cry on. Today she was standing in a huddle crying her eyes out on her two sister's shoulders you've no idea how hard it was to watch! Sheena god i love this woman so much she is my biggest rock out of the three and we are as she puts it her 'weans' and i'll happily be her wean for the rest of my life she's been there through everything and now its our turn to be there for her. Isabel you we so brave today i dont know how you did it you held yourself together better than i did.
Now my eyes are killing me from crying so much and i have make up everywhere except from where it should be so i'm going to go and pull myself together and get ready for tomorrows funeral
Much Love
Sarah xxx
RIP Annie Page January 1922 - April 2007
THough i walk through the valley of the shaddow of death
I will fear no evil!