life?

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It somewhat early and Elizabeth is a sleep. I figered I would update becouse i have not in so time. I realize that I wont to tell my mom about the hole lesbian side of me but i know she will hate me, and theres so much going on with my famliy. I sometime wish my sister would no be sick anymore. Its just canser is such a big scaey word and i wont to be brave for my sister but at time all i wont to do is cry. its like my sister is my hero and its hard to belive that the strongs person i know can become so weak. but she still strong she is able to do everything she used to, it like she still pick on me and in a way it make me happy becouse shes still my big sister. i also realized that alot of my freands dont now about this "this problom" and i dont way i didnt tell then its not like there not importent anuf to know it just i was scaed...which i dont understand why but i figer i gess if everyone new it would be really like there really something wrong with sarah but i understand and i can be strong becouse thats what i need to do to help myself really understand it all
Elizabeth has rally help me becouse without the person i tell everything to i thing i be a mess And i realizd thats way i love her more each day becouse she there all the time and she makes me happy at my worst