Rendezvous
Title: Rendezvous
Pairing: Changmin (DBSK) / Taemin (SHINee)
Rating: R
A/N: A not so happy birthday fic. Sorry for the angst or whatever this is xD (Beta'd by Manju, thanks bby ♥)
It was JaeJoong’s planning, the sneaky bastard. Changmin was pretty sure he had been clear on how much he hadn’t wanted a birthday party this year-and yet here he was, watching from the sidelines at the crowd (of co-workers and friends and people he didn’t even know) on the dance floor that was once their living room. He downs his umpteenth cocktail and decides the roof would probably be a better place to be right now.
He’s surprised to see that one kid there, though after some thought, he really shouldn’t be surprised at all. The tall boy-Taemin, from SHINee-is timid, flashing cute and firm smiles (if you look close enough though, you can see how they waver), and Changmin thinks the boy is so much like a younger version of himself.
“A-ah, sunbae, saeng il chuhka hamnida,” Taemin bows, steep and respectful, puffs of chilled breath twirling around his face in the cool night’s air.
He is just too cute, too unknowingly charming that Changmin can’t help himself.
Taemin’s alcohol tolerance isn’t very high (not that it should be, Changmin thinks, he’s just a child after all) and maybe that third shot wasn’t the best idea because Taemin is too loose now, eyes dark and lips glistening.
And it’s all a big mistake really, a messy rendezvous, they stumble into Changmin’s bedroom and they are all over each other, tangled up and Changmin doesn’t plan to let go.
Taemin’s virgin skin is perfect, creamy and soft under his fingers and Changmin thinks he could touch it forever. But the younger boy is impatient in his inexperience, so needy and fuck, Changmin feels like a teenager himself.
When they finish, Taemin is glowing. He mumbles a quick thank you, hyung against Changmin’s neck before falling asleep in the latter’s arms.
Changmin promises it will never happen again.
It was a mistake Taemin, a mistake, he tries to explain but Taemin doesn’t seem to be listening, the younger boy is tickling up Changmin’s side and smiling.
That was six months ago and Changmin is pulling his pants up because he has an award ceremony to attend to tomorrow. Taemin bids him goodbye and Changmin promises it will be the last time.
Changmin never meant for it to go this far, really.
“I have to go to Japan,” Taemin just stares at him, not really understanding (or refusing to). “I leave tomorrow,”
Taemin is deathly silent, fingers pressed into his knees as he just looks at Changmin and shit it’s like he can see right through him.
“I don’t know when I’ll be back,”
That night it’s more than sex and Changmin thinks that it’s wrong, wrong, wrong because Taemin is just a baby.
“Hyung,” He is sobbing into Changmin’s chest, body shaking. “P-please, give me my heart back,” And it’s desperate and heart wrenching and Changmin doesn’t know what to do--"please,"--because he can’t find his own heart to begin with (he finds out later that Taemin had it all along).
He kisses the side of Taemin’s mouth, tasting salt and misery, and he wants to take him away from everything but he can’t (never will be able to). He waits until the younger boy is fast asleep before leaving, making sure to erase his number from the younger’s phone, and he thinks maybe it’ll be easier that way.
It’s on the plane that he realizes he forgot to erase Taemin’s number from his own phone and as he stares at the digits he feels something in his chest.
He puts his phone away before JaeJoong steals a peek.