hold on...or you risk exciting me...
so crap. i mean, yay. ohio state just gave me a bigger scholarship. they are now offering me $7,650 a year, which is all renewable for 4 years. if this keeps up, it's going to be cheaper for me to go out of state. i don't know how i'm going to pay for michigan. i'm not counting on them offering me anything. and then, what do i want to do? i'm gonna have to do something that pays enough to make going to expensive-as-hell michigan worth it. from what i'm hearing, communications majors aren't doing too hot when they graduate. and journalists get paid crap.
fuck.
also, i think things are weird now. with her. why did i go and be honest? why did i lie in the first place? well, i know why i did that. you know what, it's not fair. why does it have to be everyone else's business? why can't i be selfish for once? i don't like being told that wanting the thing that makes me happiest is being selfish. it's like i'm being told i don't deserve a relationship because it makes things uncomfortable/difficult for other people. well you know what, screw other people. it's not about them, much as they want to make it so.
i could continue ranting but you wouldn't know what i was talking about anyways.
-erin-
fuck.
also, i think things are weird now. with her. why did i go and be honest? why did i lie in the first place? well, i know why i did that. you know what, it's not fair. why does it have to be everyone else's business? why can't i be selfish for once? i don't like being told that wanting the thing that makes me happiest is being selfish. it's like i'm being told i don't deserve a relationship because it makes things uncomfortable/difficult for other people. well you know what, screw other people. it's not about them, much as they want to make it so.
i could continue ranting but you wouldn't know what i was talking about anyways.
-erin-