tell tale weekends
all in parts and pieces
swim lonely
find your own way out
i am so deflated after this weekend ,alone and lonely and i wish that he were here and maybe more so that i were there because it was so apparent how much he has no desire to be here ,in this place that i have chosen over everything else and i feel like i have lost.whatever the race was i have lost and you cant run it again can you.
faced with what ifs and how comes and jsut maybe ifs i keep reminding myself that this was my choice and at any time i could have pulled out .....but i didnt and now here i stand with so very much left behind and it feels like the light ahead isnt all that bright.
I find myself constantly trying to do things for me.To get ahead to better my position in this world only to find myself more flat on my arse than i began. what if this is one of those moments? and what will i lose along the way...................i know that feeling i get when i know things are about to go bad and i can see it coming on the hirizon.
I want to be positive i want this to work and i want him to be there for it ,please dont slip ,dont go, im sorry.
swim lonely
find your own way out
i am so deflated after this weekend ,alone and lonely and i wish that he were here and maybe more so that i were there because it was so apparent how much he has no desire to be here ,in this place that i have chosen over everything else and i feel like i have lost.whatever the race was i have lost and you cant run it again can you.
faced with what ifs and how comes and jsut maybe ifs i keep reminding myself that this was my choice and at any time i could have pulled out .....but i didnt and now here i stand with so very much left behind and it feels like the light ahead isnt all that bright.
I find myself constantly trying to do things for me.To get ahead to better my position in this world only to find myself more flat on my arse than i began. what if this is one of those moments? and what will i lose along the way...................i know that feeling i get when i know things are about to go bad and i can see it coming on the hirizon.
I want to be positive i want this to work and i want him to be there for it ,please dont slip ,dont go, im sorry.