Whatever... and The Llama
I miss being happy all the time. I hate having to fake being happy! It's been about a week already of feeling like this and i don't know what's wrong. I used to love waking up in the morning and now i just wish i didn't have to deal with everything. I know something is wrong, i've been too emotional lately and crying for the littlest things. I just wish this week was gone and everything was normal again. I wish i could be with him all the time cause when i'm around him it seems like i don't have to fake happiness too much, i'm just glad to be around him. before this whatever i could actually walk around with a natural smile on my face and lately it's just big one big fake lie. I don't know what's wrong with me, i think i just need someone to talk to about everything that is going on. But the thing is there really is no one to talk to, it sucks knowing that there really is no one to go to. It sucks to think or know that the ones you once trusted have lost all or most of your trust in. I don't know.... until next time....
Berna